NRG hazed · @hazedCS
30th Sep 2022 from TwitLonger
Restricted Free Agent
So unfortunately my time on the NRG starting lineup has come to an end and it wasnt of my choice.
The growth the team had since joining made me feel accomplished. I loved that team. All the guys just clicked. It's only the second time I've had a team that enjoyed playing together OUTSIDE of the game as well as in. It's also the best org I've ever played for. They were incredibly accommodating and treated us as humans first.
So where does this leave me? I don't know to be honest. I had so much fun playing with this team that I told myself I would play another year. A big part of me wants to play in the Ascension league, qualify for VCT and beat the shit out of NRG for replacing me. Another part of me admittedly wants to just hang it up. Less and less people are willing to fall behind a 33 year old IGL. Over the last couple of years, I've felt out of place in the scene that I've lived and breathed for the last 16 years of my life. I don't feel like I connect with the players and community like I used to, mostly due to age. Over the course of my time on NRG, I've flirted with the idea of leaving competition in pursuit of other things because of that.
The only thing I can say for certain is this is the most motivated I've ever been in my life. I feel like I have to prove myself again as a player and leader. But what I'm not here to do is sell myself. You know what I provide.
If any teams are interested, feel free to contact me or @NRGbikeage for either a player or coach position.