What is going on...

---

As you have seen I've got benched for the rest of the second regional. I'm going to explain a bit more the situation so everyone can understand it. To make it very quick I have always been a depressive person and I always acted super toxic person towards everyone. I'm still trying my best to change I swear... I apologise for that but I don't expect anyone to forgive me but more to understand me. I'll not go in details of what exaclty happened to me but I have some serious stuff IRL going on since I'm 13/14 with my parents and that's why I'm living on my own since I'm 15. I have always been alone in my room and had a lot of problems with everyone at school. So now I'm just a dickhead to everyone. I have not been a good teamate with pryyme and rado and with pryyme and stake. There are sometimes where I wasn't motivated at all, I wasn't comming much and was playing bad. The first regional of 3rd split I had a big issue with my parents that made me not care about the game / RLCS at all. I didn't comm and I was playing garbage. I asked a week off to take care of me, the manager decided to keep scrimming. After that I was still not motivated in scrims as I needed a week off. Pryyme tweeted that I was selfish for doing that and I had to go in details of what was happening with my parents so all the team could understand me. I said that I was going to change, I just needed time. I did change, this regional I grinded my ass on the game, I commed my best and I played super good. Pryyme wasn't comming, he was barely speaking which tilted me as he literally made a tweet saying that I was selfish for doing that. I messaged stake and rix to make things change, pryyme kept on not comming that much. It tilted me even more so I ragequited the teamspeak for the second time as I left it also before ( the first bo we lost ). After that 2nd ragequited I received a message of Jeff ( CEO of Resolve ) saying that I couldn't play the rest of the regional. I went back to teamspeak saying that I wanted to play, stake said that he wanted me to play, cause with rix it was obviously lost. But, as Rix told me, it was Jeff decision's so no one can change it. They left the teamspeak and went on discord to play the last bo vs navi so I can't be there with them.
At the moment I don't know if I'm benched or I'll be able to play the last regional. Of course, I'm still motivated as fuck to play the last regional it just depends of the team decision.
Big sorry to stake who's a great mate who left a broken team to join an even more broken one...

Sorry for everyone supporting me I'll comeback stronger I promise.

Thanks for reading this huge text ily <3

Reply · Report Post