Goodbye…. Or see you soon
As you guys probably have already seen, I've decided to step down from Rogue’s active roster and decided to take a break from competitive gaming as I've lost my motivation and drive to scrim day in, day out.
I started this journey back in 2018 when I joined Orgless and I loved every second of my career till now. The organisation and the team have been more than I could have ever asked for, but for about a year I've noticed a decline in my motivation and I have found that the only reason I was still playing was the salary itself rather than the game. Corona for example has had a big impact on me. Sitting at home for over a year and practicing day in, day out without any events has made me feel very caged. What a lot of people don't realise is how draining this job can be. You basically work 24/7 and you have to sacrifice a lot of your social life and freetime to get the most practice in. You can’t plan ahead of time as you are never really aware of when you are free and when you aren’t due to late scheduling, roster-moves or whatever else it may be. This means you can’t really plan for simple things like going on holidays with friends and family, and the sacrifices that come with the job didn't feel worth it for me anymore.
Obviously it’s still a very privileged job, a dream that came true, but I simply need some time off after all these years to reset and hopefully find my motivation again.
For now, I've applied to university and I'm going back to a normal day-to-day life, hoping that this is where I find my enjoyment again. Maybe in a couple of months I'll feel like I want to play again and I’ll give it another shot. Maybe I won’t, but either way I'm very happy with the people I got to know through Siege, the events I've played, and the support I received.
Much love, Lukas