I hope you all read this, FGC. I have some heavy things to get off my chest.

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I don't really know how to start this, but all I know is I have a few things I'd like to just get off my chest so I can really move on from my past.

Some of you may have noticed, but as of recently, me and Carolyn are no longer together.. it pains my heart because what we had was truly special, and I really let a lot of holding to my past trauma with my mom and her drug years that I let it really.. really hold me and Carolyn back in our relationship. I had this darkness on me from my trauma that honestly really started to engulf me after I left Tempo Storm at the beginning of the pandemic, couple that with the pandemic and yeah.. just insanely dark times for me and streamed through all of it putting on the fakest happy personality that it really has damage me and even Carolyn could tell the toll it was taking on me and would try to stop it, but it was just too much. Every relationship has their problems, but I feel like it's right for me to take responsibility in this relationship no longer surviving because I couldn't care for Carolyn enough over my own trauma and my own delusions of grandeur during my time as a pro player.

I only share this with you, FGC or whoever is reading this, because:

1) I really cherished how sweet the community was towards me and Carolyn. After the initial rocky public period where we dated in 2014 and Kappa was just going at me and everything(rightfully so, $270 is a lot of money actually), everyone else was just super sweet and supportive. We had so much fun art made for us by friends and peers over the years and had some really great work done almost every year by the very talented Richard Suwono, all art that I still cherish to this day, even though Carolyn are no longer together.

2) I have an underlying message for you, this one being the main reason why I wanted to make this entire twitlonger, actually. It always REALLY bothered me how Carolyn has helped LITERALLY 100s of you influencers & players on a local level in Nor Cal and also on a professional level during her time as a Capcom representative, especially how HARD she worked for EVERY single Capcom Cup qualifying Street Fighter 5 player, and only about half of them would ever say anything, and some, who will not be named, made Carolyn have a panic attack in her hotel room in 2019 because they went on a social media tirade about lag. We have forgiven them, we are past this, we only want the best for them now(you know who you are and that I'm not trying to attack the current you right now, I'm actually very proud of the growth you've shown as a person alone over the years.)

Another thing, and this one, OH BOY, bothers me the most and it's how Carolyn was the ONLY ONE... in the ENTIRE FGC.. that was the bravest fucking person I've ever seen and took on literally hundreds of girls coming to her about the INSANE AMOUNT of sexual abuse that goes on behind the FGC in closed doors. Just know, if you've been banned, you fucking deserve it and don't ever try and plea your case because there are receipts, the victims only show you mercy. Stay out of the victims' lane, God dammit.

But yeah, she did ALL THAT and after she left Capcom, literally only a handful of you reached out to her to see what her next move was, HOW SHE'S DOING, and just in general, you guys fucking used her for damn near 3 years because has the heart of a God damn saint and you guys just ruthlessly abused that, and I only realized this the other day, because after we broke up... I realized the darkness I let consume me abused her too, and I will always regret that..

So all I ask FGC, stop fucking harassing women, grow the fuck up, REACH OUT TO CAROLYN, BUT ONLY IF YOU ACTUALLY CARE(she doesn't have time for anymore of that fake love most of you solely gave her, I can promise you that much), and just really try caring about people, hell, just start caring about yourself, because what I realized 6 years too late into mine and Carolyn's relationship is that I held back a lot of my love, because I couldn't love myself, and therapy was really what saved me, and Carolyn's consistent patience.

And lastly, I'm deleting Twitter and have moved back home to Riverside and coincidentally met up with guy who runs Riverside Gamelab in Downtown Riverside and I really wanna help him accomplish his vision of becoming the next Esports Arena. I truly believe we can do it and if you need us, you can find us on Instagram, but not.. this toxic app anymore.

Go with love, FGC. See you in Riverside, and thank you for everything Carolyn, seriously. You gave me a new sense of purpose, even when we're back to be hundreds of miles apart. I wish you the absolute best, and you'll always be.. my best friend. ❤

Love,
- Alex Myers

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