Night 😈 Villainess Creator, Game Reviewer (18+) · @NightParadox_VT
23rd Jun 2021 from TwitLonger
An Open Letter to my Community.
Hey everyone, it's Night. I just wanted to make this post because of some things that have been on my mind. It's not the end of the world, but it's something that I want to try and improve.
I have not been a positive person for my VTuber career. I have been pretty toxic, very angry and spiteful, and just generally sad all around. I feel like I was hurt very early on in my career by a group of individuals who I don't want to name right now (if you've watched my recent streams you know what's up). I feel like that pain, alongside my at that point undiagnosed bipolar disorder and psychosis, has lead me down a very unhappy path in my VTuber career that I am not proud of or happy about. I have burned a lot of very good bridges due to my attitude.
This needs to change.
We have a positivity problem. It's really my fault for allowing it to happen. I need to do my best to be better as a community leader and as an inspiration for others. It's my responsibility to do so, and I'm going to do my best to accomplish it. I want my community to be the kind of place where anyone who's in for a fun time can come in and enjoy themselves, not a negative atmosphere. I want it all to be real too. I don't want to fake it.
I also want to be kinder to the wonderful people I have met on my journey and continue to meet every day. I avoided being around other people for years due to childhood trauma and therefore have not had the life experience to understand how to talk to people about topics other than streaming. It's something that I wish to improve on, but I'm still figuring out how to do it. I believe my therapy which begins next month will help me on this matter.
I am sorry to everyone who has been hurt by my actions in the past. I never meant to go out and hurt anyone. I don't enjoy being disliked and I don't enjoy hurting others. I just do not have the means to have full control of my mental state at all times and I understand that problem now. I'm doing my very best to improve every day.
I hope that we will continue to grow, and that you will all continue to support me even through these difficult times. I will continue to do my best for you, as I always have, and I always will.
From,
Night