I am sorry
I am sorry. My actions were simply not good enough. To put it simply I was childish. To think I have such a large community and let everyone down through panic and desperation is beyond me, I am better than that.
I have never been taught how to act with such a influential platform, and even though it isn't supported within my religion, I should never speak out about such topics and views. I knew it was wrong as soon as I said it, but it was already too late.
I stupidly gave my account to my friend, which just made things worse and worse as I was not wanting to lose everything I had made. Trying to better myself at the cost of others which is not who I am or what I ever want to do. Despite not having any input on what was said in the slightest, I should have put a stop to it sooner. Mess up after mess up I cannot apologise for it enough. I feel so guilty for all the people I have affected.
I don't ask for forgiveness, I am just here to apologise to every single person I have offended but also let down.
The community I have I am so grateful for, and I will begin to rebuild myself as a better person during my break.
Many thanks to LootBoy Esports, who I also owe a massive apology too, despite everything they stuck with me until the end, which I can only thank them for.
From today I will be taking time off of social media and learning myself how to condone myself in a better light. If I have this amazing community I need to know how to respect it and spread love across it.
I'm so sorry everyone,