Taking a step back from competitive Call of Duty...
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to write, I am stepping down and will no longer compete in competitive Call of Duty for the foreseeable future.
Not sure if many of you remember, but a few years back while on FaZe, I struggled with weakness in my thumb/wrist and needed surgery. Going through that process of getting healthy again was one of the hardest things I ever had to do both physically & mentally, which led to a lot of stress and anxiety. Unfortunately, the injury has returned making it really hard for me to compete at the highest level against some of the best players in the world. Playing through the weakness and pain in my hand just isn't possible anymore. I don't enjoy competing when I can't be the ZooMaa everyone knows and loves and feel like it's not fair to myself or to my team to go through all that again, potentially causing more damage to my hand.
It breaks my heart to step away from a game I put my heart and soul into every single day for eight years. Tearing up just writing this, but I don't know what else to do at this point. It's been an amazing run... I don't regret anything and I am grateful to have had a long playing career doing what I love to do at such a high level. I have met so many amazing people through esports and have made so many friendships I’ll continue to cherish for the rest of my life. None of this would have been possible without the love and support you guys showed me day in and day out, every single day, it was the only thing keeping me going through it all.
I love CoD and esports in general so much and will continue to show my love and support to the scene. I'm not sure what the future holds and will explore all options as I love this game too much to walk away completely. I look at it as one door closing and another one opening.
I want to thank my friends and family for being by my side through it all, I would have never made it without them.
Thank you to the New York Subliners and Andbox for your confidence and support. Representing the New York franchise as a player has been a dream come true.
Thank you to all my teammates past & present for being by my side through thick & thin, finding success along the way. I also want to thank all my competitors for bringing out the best in me, playing head to head may sometimes bring out the worst in us, but it's all love from me at the end of the day.
Most importantly, I want to thank all of my fans for supporting me. Without y'all none of this would have been possible and I'll never forget that. I love every single one of you and look forward to what the future holds. ❤️🐎