Racc · @RaccoonEggs
11th Jan 2021 from TwitLonger
generic youtuber update
The reason I haven't explained myself is because I have no idea how to without making people sad, but also people get sad if I don't explain myself, so wtf do I do. I haven't been able to make content or stream since June due to a medical problem that gives me severe allergies, I've had to move 7 times in 3 years because every rundown apartment and house in my city gives me symptoms. I've been in an Airbnb with shitty internet since October trying to find a place but gotten denied everywhere, so I can't say when I'll be able to come back, but I've been wanting to for a while. I'm sorry for not being straightforward earlier, I have a hard time admitting when I'm suffering, I want to be something "positive" people can look up to, not someone whining about their life, if that makes sense. Obviously I've taken that sentiment too far to the point where it's just self-destructive behavior. That's not easy for me to admit but I might as well be honest, since I've been a little bullshitter even before I left, pretending my life is perfect. I'm trying to be a better person, which is rich coming from me. I'll do a comeback stream and we can catch up once I've got a place to live, I know shit is rough right now so I want to help. Hope you've all been well, talk again soon.