Nova 🌿 · @novaruu_
20th Dec 2020 from TwitLonger
Finally sharing my story about the Cult
In December of 2017, I left my life in Finland behind so I could move to the United States. I moved in with a guy I knew named Shane. Unfortunately, we ended up having a falling out after just a week of living together. He ended up moving to New Jersey to live with some of his friends. A couple of months went by and we found ourselves talking again. It wasn’t long before he invited me to come out to New Jersey and meet his friends. Shane sensed that I was feeling “lost in life” at the time and he told me his friends would be able to help me. A month later I flew out to meet them in New Jersey. Their names were Lana Rain and Terrence Sanchez. Lana was a well-known cam girl that I had idolized for a long time, and Terrence was her husband.
On the first night of my trip, we all did MDMA together. It was my first time, and I remember sharing a lot of personal details about myself and my life with the group. Terrence was on shrooms, and he had us gather around him on the couch. We were told to sit in a circle and to solely listen to him rambling on shrooms. We were instructed to follow the rules; no talking, no laughing, and no cuteness (no one was allowed to say cute things; only Lana was allowed to be cute).
Terrence would talk about levels of shrooms, he had a ranking system of 1-5, and if you were on level 5 you were a god. He also would talk about quantum mechanics, past lives, etc. At first I thought he was crazy but I went along with it because both Shane and Lana insisted he had saved their lives and made them into better people. I politely declined the offer. I told them that I wanted to seek therapy, and in turn they told me that MDMA and shrooms were simply better for me; telling me they would “fix” me. I found out that the three of them were constantly micro-dosing.
In no specific order, I’m going to talk about some of the things that happened to me over the course of the 6 months that I knew them.
The first time I did shrooms I had a very bad trip and threw up. I was told by the group that I was weak for throwing up.
Terrence was always talking about how in love he was with this girl, and he showed me pictures of her on his phone. Later I found out she was just 16 years old. When she turned 18 Terrence said he started sending her drugs in the mail so that they could do them over the phone with each other. He had this explicit hentai image set as his phone background. He liked to pretend it was her; sometimes even doing lewd things to it such as pretending to lick it.
I was constantly told that all my friends back home in LA were “trash”, and that the group members were my “real friends”. If members of the group had an argument, Terrence would jump between them and try to pin them against one another.
Everything we did had to be run by Terrence first; he believed he was God and he was convinced that he knew all the answers to everything and anything. Whenever I brought up any of my personal interests (movies, music, videos, etc.) he would call them dumb, because apparently only the stuff he liked was any good. At one point we ended up all having the same phone as him.
We all were assigned roles based of the Marvel Universe. Terrence was Thor, and he declared I was “Thor’s Hammer”. He made me change my online screen name to “Nova Storm”. He named most people in the cult; names based on the elements, as he was Terra (Earth).
One day a girl that visited us overdosed and started to have a seizure. Terrence tried to restrain her. I instantly went into first aid mode and told everyone to give her space and placed a pillow underneath her head.
I remember watching a random video. It triggered my brain to recall being raped, and naturally I started to get upset. Terrence screamed at me and called me weak, until I had the worst panic attack of my life and eventually blacked out.
Terrence was showing Lana how to give me a massage for a video and I suddenly felt him touch my vagina. I immediately said something and put a stop to the massage. He later went on to tell everyone that I was lying about that ever happening.
Terrence frequently mentioned how he used to be in a gang that killed people. He often talked about killing people and how he wanted certain people dead.
On my last day there, a bunch of people from the cult came over to the apartment. I opened up to one of the girls about my concerns and she went straight to Terrence and told him everything. He then turned the whole group against me. Everyone all took turns and attacked my character for nearly an hour. Terrence screamed at the top of his lungs. He took every interaction I had and twisting it to make me look bad and malicious.
I’m sure there are a lot of memories I’m forgetting. The whole experience was extremely traumatizing, and I’ve been too scared to talk about it because of how well known Lana Rain is.
As of right now, Sasha, a former member of the cult, has killed themselves. They helped write the Nick Monroe article below. I didn’t know them personally, but this is far beyond just drama. I don’t want anyone else to have to go through what I did and I hope my story encourages other people to have the courage to come forward with their stories. I left a lot of people out in respect of their privacy.
If you’d like to see Cassie and Sammy share their stories, they start talking about it in this vod around 42.30.
https://www.twitch.tv/videos/842549105?t=00h42m30shttps://www.twitch.tv/videos/842549105
Here’s a recording from on the day I left where Terrence gets the group to gang up on me
https://streamable.com/ei1ei5
Here are some important links for anyone that wants to deep dive into this, there’s a lot more.
https://nickmonroe.blog/2018/12/03/quantum-synchronicity-the-ballad-of-terence-bloodcalibur-sanchez/
https://lolcow.farm/w/res/3990.html
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/terence-sanchez-eightloaded-infiniteloaded-bloodcalibur.43273/
https://i.imgur.com/a6iCkxv.png