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26th Jun 2020 from TwitLonger

A story about FinalBoss TV, or Bay, as known by his in game ID.


In light of the current situation, I felt I had to come out with my own story. I was going to keep quiet, until a friend of mine approached me with an accusation of me being a liar. I realized then this story is going to spread whether I want it to or not, since he has begun telling his side of the story. I felt people would figure out the involving parties sooner or later. So here I am, doing the sooner rather than waiting for later to catch up with me.

It was a few years ago, Crisp hosted a gathering for Blizzcon; at the time we didn't have a lot of budget, so we wind up getting a hotel room for 10-15 people(something close to that, it was a long time ago). Needless to say, it was pretty cramped; some people had to share beds, and some slept on the floor.

I wind up sharing a bed with Bay, better known as FinalBoss TV. I was new to the guild, and he was a streamer with a decent fan base, so I looked up to him a little bit, and felt safe enough to share a bed with him, believing a public figure wouldn't do anything..overboard.

I was also quite young at the time, and let's just say inexperienced; it was my first time traveling by myself, and my guard was close to zero.

On the last night of the gathering, when he thought I was asleep, he reached from his side of the bed and touched me. Not just "innocent" touches, his hands were over on my genital area. For a WHILE.

I had no idea what to do in that situation; I just laid there pretending to be asleep as I thought over what I should do, should I stop him? Should I wake up everyone and call the police?

I decided not to do that, because I was afraid if I did, I would never be allowed to travel by myself again. I had strict parents who were very protective of me, and fussed over my safety around strangers. Well, now I can see why.

As fucked up as it was, my mind justified it as he liked me, or whatever. I don't know what went on in my stupid head, but I acted friendly towards him the next day; most everyone was gone, and it was just me and him in the hotel room. Some more touching happened(although nothing as "overboard"), at the time I still thought of it as okay; again, I'm not sure why, defensive mechanism perhaps. I really can't say.

After I returned home, the more I remembered what happened, the more I realized how wrong it was, and how disgusted I should really feel. And I did. I felt like puking every time I heard him speak on voice comms. I told the GM about it, I told the officers about it, what they told me was:
"We can't punish him in game for what he did in real life."

When I heard that, I just gave up. I couldn't go to the police about it, I had no proof; I couldn't just post this online, again because I had no proof. I was terrified my parents would find out. I was afraid people wouldn't believe me, or would tell me "maybe you wanted it too, why else would you keep quiet for so long?"

So I kept quiet. I kept quiet until I no longer gave a shit about him. I muted him on comms and went about my way.

Until today he sent me this apology out of the blue: https://imgur.com/BD3sGQ4

I knew EXACTLY what he was trying to do the moment I saw his name pop up. All these years he said nothing, and NOW he come to me with this half-assed apology??

Yeah. I wasn't going to be fooled. So this is what I said to him: https://imgur.com/crqOzzL

And I blocked him. I thought that was the end of that.

But I guess not. I guess he went ahead and told his side of the story. And now I feel I have no choice but to tell my side as well, even though I would much rather just keep living my life as it is. I don't give a rat's ass about what happens to him. I don't care about justice. I just wanted to be left alone, and be away from anything that has to do with HIM.

Well, if he wants so badly to make this public, then I guess there is no reason for me to hold mine back.

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