JubileeBlais · @JubileeBlais
26th Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
@gameboyluke
Michael wrote an apology on my behalf while I processed my emotions, his only intention was to protect me, someone who he loves very much. I suffer from emotional disregulation and impulsivity as a result of my ADHD. I have made an appointment with a therapist and am searching for a new doctor as my top priority so I can get to a better place mentally. I currently don’t have my symptoms under control and am recently unmedicated and inbetween doctors. This doesn’t excuse my actions, but I hope it helps some people understand why I made this mistake and why I treated people so poorly, when that’s not who I am. When I saw people starting to make allegations against people in the pokémon community it caused me to relive the traumatic events at PAX last year. I projected my anger at N****n onto Vinny and his friends and bottled that anger up until it burst out on twitter. I didn’t apologize for FeintAttacks because I didn’t lie. He really did say the thing I said he did.
I’m not asking for anyone to forgive me. I know many of you never will, and that’s ok. I understand what I did was wrong and caused more pain than any apology can whisk away. I can’t undo what I did but I am going to learn from this experience and be a better person and a better friend going forward. I’m so sorry for all the pain I’ve caused.