curvyllama𓆩♡𓆪🌙 · @Curvyllama
23rd Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
IAmSp00n- my experience with him tw; sexual abuse, manipulation
Sam has already commented that he in fact has been a horrible person and has removed himself from the gaming community. If he does decide to come back at all to the gaming space, women need to know everything before jumping into anything with him- so here's my story.
I met IAmSp00n via him coming into my chat [in 2015]. I was a smaller streamer back then [seemed to be his targets were this a lot of the time]. We ended up talking a LOT before meeting for the first time at Twitchcon 2015. We hung out a bunch during the day and at some of the parties but I never went back to where he was staying [he had probably told me excuses so he could hide all the women he was meeting with] It was my first convention anyways and I wanted to catch up with all my H1Z1 friends anyways, I thought nothing of it.
- 𝐨𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠
I found out recently from Corey · @Snookville's Twitlonger that there was a revolving door of women that weekend. He did not mention this to me at all. We weren't 'official' but we were talking with the intentions of being official. We were so close that immediately after the convention, we drove back to his house in San Fran to stay with him for a few weeks. He had multiple moments to tell me what had happen just out of respect, but never did.
Fast forward a month later, we are officially dating. [Still didn't mention what went on Twitchcon weekend] I flew to his house once again to be with him for about a month or so. One night he was live, I was watching his stream from the other room, bantering in chat and what not- when I notice he seems very distracted/something was wrong. I get weirded out and go up to him to see if everything was okay. I walk over to him, put my arm around his shoulders and go in for a hug, I then see [this was when whispers popped up in your chat] a whisper from a pink username, another female streamer.
The whisper said something along the lines of-
'you're just involved. and I'm available. and i don't think that mixes well'
I back up and mouth to Sam 'what is that?' I didn't want to cause drama on stream. He knew I was pissed and ended the stream abruptly.
Then another whisper came along and said-
'curvyllama is angry with you for whispering me. i can see it on her face'
We fight for hours. He made me feel like I was a crazy bitch for wanting to know what they were talking about since the first message was suspicious and his track record hadn't been the best. He played mind games with me and really really made me feel like I was out of line for even asking him about this worry. It was a simple question and if he had nothing to hide it wouldn't of been an issue. He made up a bs excuse about how he was helping her get into a streaming team.
Hours later, he finally let me look at the conversation. A whole 2 minuets went by before he snatched the phone from me and said okay, you're done, you've seen it. There was no talk of a stream team. Just insane flirting while I was visiting him at his house, in the other room.
Let me note here as well- the girl kept telling him to back off towards the end and he just acted oblivious...[pictures in tweet]
Because I had caught him so many times speaking with other women inappropriately [other messages were found but not worth mentioning- its just rinse and repeat messages from him to other women] our relationship was quickly fading. Towards the end of the relationship he flew to my house one last time so we can try and work things out. The trip went great and I was feeling good about it. He left his DMs open on my computer in a tab. Because of the past I looked at the first message. I did not feel great about doing so but I had to find out if he was continuing to disrespect me and talk to other women behind my back. Low and behold I found a recent DM while he was staying at my house. It was with a girl who had an erotic dream about him. Instead of Sam backing off and not responding to said DM, he indulged her and asked her to continue to explain it. His responses were the likes of
'How would you describe it?'
'ill go have a nap. Maybe ill have a dream'
'no dreams last night :('
[pictures in tweet]
Needless to say, this fucked me up and caused a lot of dumb thoughts in my head. They trip went great yet he is still doing this. I really really got down on myself and thought I was the problem. I wasn't good enough to be faithful to. This did not help my insecurities at all.
That was the last straw for me and I decided to end things with Sam.
- 𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗶𝘁 𝗰𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝘅
Sam's sex drive was very active and at times he would not take no for an answer. We would have sex then he would be ready again. After I would protest "no" he would try little by little until I caved and we would do it again even though I didn't want to. So much to where I became sore a lot of the times afterwards. I was not comfortable and I really didn't know what to do/say. I was at his house, in another state, also I loved him, so I was blind. I really hated him for this. I feel stupid for not saying anything but, I was just scared :/
-𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁/𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗽𝘂𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗴𝘂𝗶𝗹𝘁 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗽𝗽𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝗯𝗿𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗻 𝘂𝗽
After we broke up he harassed me while live [in whispers] on who I was playing with [Max] during my streams. At the time of these messages Max and I were friends
1. https://gyazo.com/ab511ea121debfb5e883194210a6b658
2. https://gyazo.com/17f33ad4b9082719ba5af295f9bd3007
3. https://gyazo.com/2997884d56549fe09b757bcd36b60cac
4. https://gyazo.com/c5c3431ed5b0479026db9278d4a90b94
5. https://gyazo.com/2288ec5be332fd9c4af4eb5616f0c749
6. https://gyazo.com/30fcaac865a64074b6d0a84d9dd81fdc
I did have warnings from some girls once the word was out that I was dating him. I was in the infatuation phase and thought they didn't know what they were talking about. Thank you to those that warned me, I now know and see the red flags. His actions had me question a lot about myself. Was I not good enough? Not pretty enough? Not interesting enough? I've moved on from it but the scars are still there from the mind games he played. I'm getting better at trusting and I am definitely more confident in myself now, but I won't forget these red flags that he showed me.