Carson · @CallMeCarsonYT
15th Apr 2020 from TwitLonger
I'm sorry
First of all, before I start off, I hope you all are doing well. You probably weren’t expecting any of this stuff, and neither was I, but here we are. This is all a real mess, huh?
I want to admit my own faults in this situation as I am guilty of things here as well.
It’s been very difficult for me to watch everything unfold after I came out with the information I did on reddit. It’s my personal belief that I should have never made any of the information that’s out now public. It was a private matter that should have stayed private, and I want to admit I am at complete fault for it being in the public eye. I put it out there in hopes that I could finally move past it, and every day I woke up feeling resentful, immature, and petty. It hurt me to think that 2 people could do something like this to me and get away with it, so in an emotionally impulsive response I put it in front of the world. This was the wrong decision because at the end of the day no one is entitled to this information besides the parties involved.
Just like Kate and Fitz, I’m an entertainer that creates content for people, and what I do in my personal life, even if it’s wrong, isn’t information that I think should be shared. As someone who has been dealing with imposter syndrome and the inability to go out in public without being recognized, even to my hometown grocery store, I should have realized the hypocritical nature of putting this entire situation on display for all of you.
You all have no idea how much I appreciate the support you’ve given me recently, and it’s helped me immensely to know that I have all of you to fall back on. That being said, I think it’s important to say this: I am just as flawed of a human as Kate. I am just as flawed of a human as Fitz. I am just as flawed of a human as Keemstar. I am flawed.
Seeing everyone’s support is awesome, but knowing that next week it could all be flipped on me is terrifying. I am not perfect and I make mistakes. What Kate and Fitz did was wrong and I think we can all acknowledge that, but seeing myself paraded around in such a manner feels misplaced. Next week, it could hypothetically be me in front of the public eye having done something wrong in my private life, because I’m just as susceptible to making poor decisions as anyone. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life that I’m not proud of, and to think of myself in Kate and Fitz’s shoes makes me feel sorry for them.
Moving forward, please respect Kate and Fitz’ time to process this, as well as respect their break or whatever they choose to do.
To Kate and Fitz: I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you, and I’m sorry for putting your private lives on display for the world. It was the wrong decision and I apologize. You did wrong, but you didn’t deserve your careers jeopardized. I hope you both can become the people I want to see you as.
Anyways that’s about it. I’m gonna go back to playing 8ball now.