No one deserves the level of pain I caused, especially not Lily: someone who has only shown me kindness.
My choices were immensely selfish, and the levels of betrayal go beyond repair.
She does not deserve to suffer like this.
Nothing I write could ever be enough, nothing I say could possibly change anything.
It will never be enough. There is only reparation in who I choose to be from here on out.
I will be taking time away from the public for self-reflection.
I'm sorry for the extreme hurt I've caused to everyone in the communities, to those who I could once call 'friend', and to Lily most of all.
I'm so sorry.