To my friends, followers, and community. I have to tell you something.
cw for sexual abuse
A thread detailing my past actions has surfaced today, things that I have been running from for almost 2 years, and now I'm writing this to give you the truth. I'm sorry, but yes.
First thing to address, yes I am guilty of having sent unsolicited nsfw pictures of myself to a minor. This was in 2014, and I had an extremely unhealthy mindset that my actions online didn't really matter, and that I could do whatever I wanted to. This was the last time I had ever done something like this, but things unfortunately do not get better from here.
Around this time, 3 years ago, I (19 at the time) was in a relationship with someone (17 at the time). During this relationship, I had them engage in sexual acts that they were uncomfortable with. No physical force was used, but I kept asking and begging until they agreed. To make matters worse, after our relationship ended, I ghosted them heavily, and made them believe that everything was their fault. At the time, I fully believed that I hadn't done anything wrong, and that our relationship was 100% consensual. Even after I was first confronted about all of this a year later in summer of 2017, I still didn't understand, and I responded to my victim with lashing out and gaslighting. I wish so much that I had known better then, because I should have known better, and this never should have happened in the first place.
However, now I of course know that my actions were disgusting and wrong and that I should have known better. After everything happened, I ran away and hid from my old group of friends and started over. Starting at that point, I decided to finally learn from and reflect on my actions and become a better person, and since then I have made it my mission to create a safe and positive place for people to enjoy and be happy in. I have grown and learned so much since then, and I fully intend to continue growing and learning and provide a place for people to be happy. I will not be running from this anymore.
I doubt my victim will be reading this, but I am so sorry to you, and I hope you have been able to recover.
I'm sorry to everyone reading this that you had to learn all of this about me this way. I can only promise you that I will continue striving to be better as I have been for almost 2 years.
I know without a doubt that this will be triggering to a lot of you and unforgivable to even more, so I encourage you to please do what is best for you, even if that means cutting me off for good. I completely understand, and I'm sorry.
I will be taking a month long hiatus from streaming starting today. This will give all my viewers and subs a chance to unfollow and unsubscribe. During this time, I will also not be active on my main and art twitter accounts. If anyone would like to talk, I will have discord notifications enabled and I will be happy to answer any questions. Anyone who has an unfinished commission from me is welcome and encouraged to ask me for a full refund, and I will compensate as soon as I get my paycheck this Thursday.
And once again, I am so sorry.