LFT Challenger Circuit Split 2!


Hi everyone! I am looking for teammates for the Challenger Circuit Split 2. I want to start this tweet talking about why I am competing again and why I quit to begin with. In a recent video (https://youtu.be/tOVqE_Lf-Go), I talk about how my mental health was doing throughout my streaming career. I was going through depression and some really dark times, and honestly, I can't give you a reason why. I wasn't sure if it was because of competing and the lack of performance or my streaming numbers not being where I wanted them to be or if I just had depression alone. People constantly comparing me with others, saying how I wasn't fit to be an IGL or a pro player, doubting every step I took.

It first started when I competed for Golden Guardians. I made A LOT of mistakes. Like every tourney and every game. Trust me, I know (Golden Griefers)... but that was my first time competing and honestly being any sort of gamer / pro player in this industry. I had no experience in Battle Royales or competition, so what else would you expect from a player like me and from teammates with similar experiences? Bad results and constant "griefing" ^-^. Either way I learned a lot and quit competing to pursue full time streaming, but I didn't give up on competing though.

Later in the future, I teamed up with Nicewigg and Apryze... Team Sheeeesh!!!! POGGGERS!!! A "streamer" team. A 4FUN team. Nothing serious. Just a bunch of lads having some fun playing apex competitive... I didn't expect us to do as good as we did. We constantly placed Top 5 in GLL or ALGS qualifiers. Something we all didn't really expect because we were just a streamer team having fun. Never scrimmed. Never practiced. Never played any other tourneys. As people in cs would say a random pug team. We tried our best in every match don't get me wrong in any way, but we weren't trying to be a "pro" team. At the end of the day, I went to go do my own stream things, and so did they.

After GG, I was fine to compete again as a pro player because that was just a learning experience in my timeline. I always had that competitive drive inside me, but after Team Sheesh, I didn't really want to compete anymore. Not because of my teammates, I love Apryze and Nicewigg. They are the goats and will always be my boys. It was the feedback I got as a player from the entire community. We were literally a 4FUN team where if we didn't qualify or play good, it didn't matter. Yet I constantly got shit on for my playstyle or things that were AND weren't my fault. It negatively impacted my mental health as someone who wasn't trying to make competing my "everything" and do it for fun. I think this ruined competing for me. Whether it was because I received negative feedback from the community or whether it was because I was going through depression, I was unhappy.

Side note but not really a side note: The reason why Team Sheesh quit was not solely due to one player. Jack had to leave because of family issues, and although I did have sponsor obligations, my depression was at an all time low, but I was too afraid to publicly say that at the time. I still could've played, but we spoke as a team and made the decision together to quit. Apryze misspoke and told Hal that I couldn't play was because my pc broke. Yes, my streaming pc was broken during that time, but it wasn't the reason why I couldn't play. To be completely honest, we just didn't know when Jack would be back and if it was "worth" it to play with a sub for the rest of Pro League (as a 4Fun team btw).

Moving onto the present, I am finally at a good place in my life. I am ready to take on competing once again and give it everything I got. Yes, I will still be streaming and doing sponsors and etc, but I will do my best to practice, scrim, compete in tournaments, learn, grow, and improve as a player with my team. I know I am washed right now, but I'll be back in form. I'm happy and excited to announce that I will be competing once again with lyric, and we are looking for a controller player ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) who can IGL (or not, I mean, I'll run us down again no cap).

For my community that who has always supported me throughout my competitive endeavors, thank you. I will not let you down this time.

DMs are open.

TLDR: I'M BACK MFS!!

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