Elegant · @Elegant_Matt
6th Sep 2022 from TwitLonger
Regarding Shannon
I'm sorry for the repost. I got really stressed and emotional about typing this the first time, and I apologize for sounding too casual. Now I think I'm ready to talk about everything thoroughly and the best that I can.
I'm gonna start with some background information about my friendship with Shannon. We were really good friends to the point where we would always be there for each other. We would talk almost everyday saying hi and just whatever that is going on with our lives. She was my best friend and we were honest with each other about almost everything.
So regarding Collision 2022. We were excited to go and see each other for the tournament, so we got a room together with 2 beds. The first night we talked about stuff as usual and we were just talking about life. then we got tired and went to bed. Nothing happened that night. Day 2 of the event we were playing and just doing our own thing at the tournament. We proceeded to get invited to go to a party and we wanted to go. We were there and we were having fun and everything. We were drinking this alcoholic beverage called "Jungle Juice" and it was very strong. We were drinking it and we were definitely intoxicated. We were there for a while and I didn't want to really get that drunk so I wanted to go back to the hotel.
So Shannon and I started heading back and in the uber ride, we were holding hands to keep warm cause it was winter in the east coast. Now this is where I don't really remember how it started or how it happened, but yes we indeed had sex that night. and then I remember waking up right next to her, She was going through something in the morning and was crying in the bathroom, so my first initial thought was to just be there for her and make sure she was okay. I really didn't know how to bring up the conversation about us having sex last night cause I didn't want to make her more worry or have more thoughts in her mind since she's already going through something that day.
After she calmed down and everything, we went to the venue for Day 3 of Collision. We were still together and talking like normal. I eventually had to leave and compete. She still cheered for me and afterwards she even got food for both of us and it felt like everything was okay. She eventually left the venue cause her ride was there and was gonna go home. I then decided to text her about what happened the previous night. We both were mature and talked about it like adults. She even said that "It was fine and that friends should be able to talk about these type of situations." So because of that, I thought we were both okay. I unfortunately don't have the text since I had the 30 day text delete option on my phone at the time. But we talked about it and I thought everything was okay between us. I just want to clarify again that we were both drunk and this was only a one time thing. It was a stupid decision made by us and I can understand why she feels this way. We were best friends and we would talk about anything so I'm really surprised that she unfriended me and everything after we just talked about what happened that night. But that's the situation between us and I didn't talk to her since.
So now the situation at SmashCon 2022 at Two Amigos. I did see her at smashcon but I didn't want to approach her since it was her decision to not want to be friends with me anymore. I respected her space and just went about my own at the tournament. I went to Two Amigos on the last day of smashcon cause I just wanted to unwind and just hangout with my friends there. So I did and then Shannon comes up to me and starts talking to me. I was surprised she did and it made me happy cause she was my best friend and I still cared about her. So we talked and kinda reconnected. We discussed how we still cared about each other and that we didn't hate one another. It felt genuine. after that conversation we hugged and that was as far as I remember my interactions with her. I remember talking to my other friends after the hug and then leaving the restaurant and just going back to my hotel room.
In her twitlonger she stated that she wanted to talk to me about what happened between us and for it to be a wakeup call to not drink so much and keep things under control. However, by the time she approached me at Two Amigos, I was already tipsy at the time. If there were any witnesses that I was drunk and was making Shannon or others uncomfortable. Please let me know so I can be held accountable for my actions.
I will say that yes, I do need to be held more accountable for my behavior while drinking and honestly won't drink again at a smash event after this. I really don't have any ill will towards Shannon, I just wish she would have communicated with me beforehand. Because she was my best friend, she could have definitely talked to me about it and it could been handled privately. But this is happening now and what's now is now. So for the people that I ever made uncomfortable for my drinking I am sincerely sorry about that. Especially to Shannon, I apologize for my behavior and I still care about you and still cherish our friendship. Whether or not we can mend our friendship, I would still like to work this out privately if possible, but if not I understand.