Thoughts and my future
Since the split is over I might as well do another twitlonger. I will get straight to the point and give an explanation and thoughts after. I will skip summer split for LoL. Yes, I have learned not to throw around the “r” word (retire) again because I could still change my mind.
League of Legends has not been my main quest like it was from 2015-2020. Since 2021 it has just been a side quest. I did find a new passion though in 2021 January while I was playing in GamersOrigin. Special thanks to Beansu, Kirei, Innaxe, Yann for introducing me to that passion. Since January 2021 I have been learning a lot about that passion and dedicating a decent amount of time every day. I decided to drop League for now so I can have extra 5-6 hours every day.
I will mention why I retired half a year ago and came back. I wanted to try University and study something I truly love, which is math. But since the first day and the whole 3 weeks I was there, I was constantly feeling fear/loneliness/hopelessness 24/7 and played LoL soloQ for copium. Since I was experiencing these negative feelings from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep I needed to change something. Back to the comfort zone aka professional League of Legends. First ESG and then RDL and while in Riddle I realized that I am just doing this because I am really good at it and it’s decent money. Since I am financially chilling, I thought fuck it. Why not commit my free time to things I am very passionate about and not something that I used to be super passionate about but not anymore.
I hear a lot of people saying that they want to be happy. Well since January 2022 I am, every single day. I have a mission and every day I am getting closer and closer to my goals. I go to the gym 5-6 times per week, I meditate every day, I read books, my social skills are 10x better, I am more positive, confident and have stronger mental health than ever. Soon I will go full monk mode. If things don’t work out, I can always come back to League but I know that they will work out. As long as I keep doing what I am doing and do the things that really interest me, I will find a way.
Few cool life discoveries for me that I want to share with other people. I can do this job 40 hours per week instead of 80 hours and have similar results and way better mental health. When I starved myself of dopamine I performed way better. I noticed that when I would watch, let’s say Peaky Blinders for 90 minutes straight, I couldn’t focus so well in League for the next 5 hours and League felt boring. If you want better focus and better results, stop watching Netflix/Twitter/TikTok/Checking phone constantly/Youtube/Gmail, stop playing video games, stop fapping, stop eating junk food/sweets, stop drinking soft drinks/alcohol (I even stopped with coffee). This will up your performance 100% guaranteed but I imagine that 99% people reading this can’t do it. I can’t do it all the time (yesterday when we lost vs DUSTY, I ate 2 small ice creams afterwards).
If anyone has questions or wants to talk, my dms are open.
Risto “Braum” Luuri