Chennie · @imchennie
5th Dec 2021 from TwitLonger
FrostyValorant TW: SA
TLDR: Frosty assaulted me knowingly the first time I met him in person.
In July of 2021, I flew out to Myrtle beach for three days to go see my boyfriend at the time who was Frosty, or Ash. Me and Ash were together only for a month and a half when we first met. We both consented to having sex before what had happened. One of the nights I stayed with him, he started initiating contact with me. I made it clear that I was in pain and that I wasn't sure about doing anything sexual at the time. He started saying things like "I know you want it" and stuff along those lines. I was too in shock and scared at what he was saying to move very much and I froze. I suffer from severe derealization and because of this I started almost completely dissociating. Midway through having sex I started having a bad panic attack and crying. I remember feeling awful for not having sex with him knowing that he wanted me to. He started apologizing and admitting that he took advantage of me after I cried. For months after this happened I believed that it wasn't technically assault due to the apology, but now that we are at the place we are right now I realized that my trauma about this was valid.
I know that this happened a while ago. For the past three months that we haven't been together, I attempted at trying to keep our friendship not knowing he did not want the same. I have diagnosed BPD and it was hard for me to let go of our relationship so I tried to hide this for the sake of his career. I no longer feel like that. The thought of this happening to someone else kills me and I feel like if I don't speak about it I would feel even worse.