My experience with Jikishi / Demetrius *tw*

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Due to the recent situations that have come to light with Jikishi, I decided that I was going to share my experience with what has happened over the years that I have known him.

I met Jikishi in 2019, when I joined an SMP he co-owned. We quickly became friends. In 2019 I was 14/15. I became very close to Jinx and later I gave him my snap chat, among of some of my other online friends before I made my face reveal for the public. Once I started to show him my face and such, he would begin to say inappropriate jokes, this started late 2019 early 2020 I believe. This continued on for a while, and I later asked why he would make those jokes and he replied with something along the lines of "That's just how I joke around with my friends." I thought I was the only one experiencing this, so I never thought to mention it to mutals of Jikishi.

Unfortunately I do not have any proof of this because earlier this year I removed him from snapchat and for that I am truly sorry, I hope you could hear me out otherwise. One thing that Jikishi would continuously do would be, he would get drunk and text me. While that is a red flag in itself, I thought nothing of it until I received multiple texts saying that he hopes he wont send anything explicit to me. Well, one evening he got drunk and sent me a snap of him (trigger warning) holding his d*ck through his underwear. I have never told anyone about this, and I never mentioned this to him in fear of him being embarrassed, and ruining something I knew he worked hard for. It seems very silly, but I did not want that guilt to stick with me, but looking back on the situation, I wish I had said something. I know how hard it can be to believe this with no proof, but considering some of these allegations have been proved, I wanted to share just to get it off my chest. Later on I asked him to stop bringing up inappropriate conversations and he did. It never continued any further after that, and I forced myself to forget what happened.

One thing I would like to say to the other victims is that I am incredibly sorry. I feel a sense of guilt for not coming out with this information sooner, and I feel that I could have saved people some pain if I had. Jikishi was a very close friend to me and I really hate that he made these gross comments/decisions. Once again, I apologize for the lack of proof, I will be posting some screen shots that I have found through discord, but considering I removed him earlier this year from snap chat I have nothing from that platform. I still care for Jikishi so much, and even re-reading messages made me think twice about posting this. Please be careful out there, and to those who encouraged me to post this thank you. To those who have also been affected by Jikishi's actions, don't hesitate to message me, I feel that sharing a common factor can help with the healing process.

Be safe and Mindful,
-Hannah

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