3pic_Gabri3I · @GabrielsEpic34
15th Oct 2021 from TwitLonger
My statement and apology
Hello everyone, by now most or all of you have already seen the screenshots of me saying all those slurs and saying all kinds of nasty stuff. if you haven't its all over twitter.
I want to start by saying this isn't the first time I have been in a shitty situation like this. I fully expect everyone to still hate me and not forgive me for my apology. To a lot of people me apologizing on twitter or through a twitlonger is nothing new. For those people its just the same old bullshit again.
However this time is different. This time there will be change no matter what. I have already been banned from multiple tournaments which I completely understand and I am fully prepared to receive any hatred, suspensions, bans or whatever consequences. If any consequences I receive ever get lifted there will be a new me coming back.
I am sorry for what I did/said. I am sorry for saying the f word and t word on multiple occasions whether or not it was towards someone or just in general. I have no excuses for using that kind of language at all. It was wrong in every way possible and I am an idiot for having those kinds of words in my vocabulary. I am sorry for being the toxic asshole you all know me as. I am sorry to those I hurt, whether we were friends or if you were just someone on twitter.
- To @BubbyNE and any other Nebraska TO.
I am sorry that you people had to go through this drama and deal with my bullshit. I am sorry that I had to put you guys through the trouble of me potentially showing up to one of your locals. I am sorry if this in any way brings any of your tournament series a bad rep/look because I almost showed up.
- To @watermelonszzz aka "King_Chris"
I have already apologized to you in the past for some inappropriate stuff I said to you and about you. Once again, I am sorry for everything I have done and said to you. I am sorry for calling you those slurs. You have always been a good friend to me and given me multiple chances. Thank you and I am very sorry.
- To Fruit
I don't know you very well or any information about you, but I called you a very bad slur and I am very sorry for it. I do not know why I saw you as that word and called you that but from the bottom of my heart I am deeply sorry.
- To @TryMetafy
I am very very sorry that you guys gave me the opportunity to be a coach on your platform and I acted very inappropriately while working with you guys. I am very sorry if I gave you guys as a company any bad reputation or hatred for having me.
- To @Ice_Killer305
as grateful as I am that you did not show those screenshots to the public earlier they still stand and are not acceptable at all. I am still deeply sorry that you had to see me say those things. I am sorry that I said what I while you were in the server. I'm sorry that I betrayed you even though you treated me with nothing but respect and always helped me in tournaments.
- To -@l4st_v1 and @Cagt3000
The amount of times you would reach out to me and give me another chance or warn me to do better is insane. You have given me countless amounts of chances and have forgiven me for doing having really inappropriate behavior. I am sorry that as a friend I did not listen to you and thought that I would be fine and kept making mistakes. I'm sorry l4st
- To Mysterica and MuteAce
I am deeply sorry that I took you both for granted as friends. I am sorry that even after we spoke about my choice of words and I said I'll do better I never did do better. I am sorry that you guys had to stand me at tournaments or in general. I am sorry that I said any slurs I said around you both or at you both.
- To Anathema
I'm sorry that we already had a conversation about this topic in the past and even though I apologized I still fucked it up. you have always been one of my best friends ever and I'm sorry I didn't treat you with the respect you deserved.
- To Scion Esports
I am sorry that you guys went out of your way to fly me out and pay for my hotel to come to one of your events. I am sorry that you guys had to throw money away for a guy like me to go. I am sorry if I gave you guys a bad rep/look.
- To SKITTLES!!!
I am sorry that even after you reached out to me and warned me telling me this would happen and it did end up getting to this point
- To the LGBTQ community
I am deeply sorry to your entire community for my choice of words and my actions. I never intended to do bring your community any stress but I did and I am sorry. What I said was wrong, very wrong and I promise to never do it again. I will do whatever it takes to prove to your community that I am NOT transphobic or homophobic.
- To my supporters
I am sorry for not being a better example to you all. I am sorry that I didn't show you all how a real top player is supposed to act. I am sorry that the only way I thanked you all for your support was inappropriate behavior on my end. Thank you for supporting me and I am sorry. please don't be like me.
- To Everyone else
I am sorry for everything. I am sorry for my choice of words, my actions, any toxicity from me or whatever bullshit I said/did in the past. I never wanted to get to this point, I have always wanted to be unique in my own way and someone everyone will remember but not like this. I am sorry to those who had to EVER come face to face with me at a tournament or interact with me online. I am sorry if I ever hurt you or your friends or made you uncomfortable in any way.
- To the love of my life, Bella aka @Naclg0d
I am sorry that you had to see me go through this and that I put you in any stress. I'm sorry that I have said the things I said and I disappointed you. I love you from the bottom of my heart and I would never ever in a million years hurt you. I love you.
I have been banned from a lot of tournaments already and I do not blame them. If I ever get unbanned then I'll come back a new man. I've said this a thousand times in the past but I promise, things will change. This has already been a huge wakeup call for me and I will work on myself starting NOW. those screenshots will never ever go away for the rest of my life but I will make sure those screenshots seem completely voided by the time I come back. For those who once supported me and for those who still support me I will be back. I'm not going anywhere, I love this scene way to much to leave. But for now I gotta hold this MASSIVE L and learn from it. I hope you can all understand? Thanks for everything :)
one last thing. I really don't care what I do/say but do NOT bring my girlfriend into this mess. she did nothing wrong and I am already seeing people attack her. FUCK OFF
have a good day :)