After spending the last few months in Valorant, I'm returning to Counter-Strike.

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I've been trying to join in on the Valorant scene and make my mark, but after spending around two months trying to get my name out there. I've started to lose hope. I can only be LFT for so long, before it feels like I'm just wasting my time. I see countless LFP posts, but none seem to wanna give me a chance. The opportunities in Valorant seemed locked behind a door. Unless a team wants to give you a chance, you're gonna be spending months just waiting. You're expected to play small tourneys to get your name out there, but you need to win events before anyone will even look your way. This isn't a solo player game, it's a team based shooter. Most teams want a flashy top fragging superstar, or experience veteran from the pro scene. I'm willing to spend countless hours to become the best at the game, but I feel like I'm wasting my life waiting for a chance that might never come.
I know CS:GO due to COVID and the match fixing has been in a rough state this past year. NA compared to EU has never had a bigger gap. I want to help make NA CS great again, but with so little orgs and tourneys it feels like there's no point. Bad News Bears are one of the best NA teams besides Team Liquid and they've been looking for an org for almost a year and they're insanely good. If Bad News Bears can't get an org, the odds of any other premier team getting an org is slim to none. Since I'm currently having an identity crisis with what I want to do with my life. I wanna spend the next few weeks playing the game I've enjoyed since my early teenage years. So with that being said, I'm going to be returning to CSGO to play competitively again. I'd like to play Valorant, but the competition for getting onto a decent team is too much for me right now.
Before anyone says, "I knew he'd come back." or "It was bound to happen." I honestly didn't want to come back. CS:GO was starting to feel stale and I felt like I was wasting my time on a game that was just slowly dying, but after spending two months playing Valorant I just kept thinking more and more about CS. My incentive was to go pro in Valorant and get my name out there, but each day just felt like I was doing the same thing over and over again and nothing was changing. I was going insane and I couldn't handle it anymore. I want to go pro, but if nobody wants to give me a chance. I'll just do what I wanna do, and right now I wanna play some CS with my friends. Going pro is gonna be my 2nd goal. My new goal is having fun and enjoying the experiences on the way to the top. Hope to see some old faces in FPL and meet some new people sometime. Excited to clap @MalbsMd in FPL again.

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