My experience as an admin with Arcadum

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Hi everyone,

My name is Chicka...

I was an admin on his server. I was emotionally abused, gaslight, hurt, etc.

We had a complaint about the following about Betty the Bulge. The complaint is below:

"First, in Weal and Woe (episode 6), there are some concerns regarding Arcanum negatively making transphobic remarks about trans women . In later streams, attempted to reframe his remarks, saying he was actually commenting on a person performing in drag, but the damage is significant. Here is the link to the vod: https://www.twitch.tv/arcadum/video/847121508. Below are timestamps.

00:58 – Intro and dialogue set up
1:01:00 – Arcadum asks Barbie to make a perception check. “The Bulge” in pants is revealed, reaction
01:31:10 – Barbie running away from “the Bulge”
01:31:35 – Follow up questions and discussion about “the Bulge” and reaction

In the conversation at 01:31:35, Betty asks Barbie, “You ever make love to a man?” which at its BEST could be an explanation that Betty identifies as a man and at its worse, relies on the transphobic discourse that trans women are “really men” and that they “trick” cis men with their feminine names/clothes. I perceived this as the punchline to the ongoing ‘joke’ that Barbie was showing sexual interest in a woman with a penis."

Overall, multiple individuals have tried to let him know of his issues and have ignored people who are professionals in LGBTQ+ issue and equality (two of them has a masters in gender studies or sociology, while another has a PhD in sociology). I was yelled at for 30 plus minutes about how I was wrong and how my degree doesn't matter (PhD in sociology with gender certificate), and how i was manipulated.

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I'm going to refer to Naomi talking about the letter that was posted on Reddit. He yelled at me multiple times asking who they were. I know them. I kept their identities a secret because I know he was going to witchhunt and yell at them. He called them out on stream, causing my friend to cry. Why the heck would I EXPOSE my friends?!
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I wanted to say--I wanted to stay because I wanted to protect the staff who worked with me because I didn't want them to be abused, to be yelled out for hours at a time. He fired me because I started a new d&d living world community. I got blasted by those in his community who agreed with him, people calling me an ice queen, calling me a bitch, or a dominating woman. I CRIED on my 10th anniversary with my then fiance by people who worked with him, calling me power hungry. I left dates and spending time with my husband just so I can fix fires in his server due to xyz.

I have PTSD from playing dnd, having nightmares about Arcadum yelling at me, working with him. I shouldn't feel this way. I have a PhD with a wonderful husband, job, friends, and dog. I quit the webcomic because I can't continue to be abused, which I feel bad for the team, but I had to for myself. I wanted to make a community in the hopes that we don't have to be abused or I have to be in it to protect people.

I have so much more to say--but I wanted to post my story. If you want clarification or need me to provide more details, let me know.

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