assault rach · @notrxchel
26th Jul 2021 from TwitLonger
Regarding @OkeanosQT
I've been debating whether or not to come out with this because of how scary and confusing this situation was.
I’m so fucking disgusted and almost ashamed that I have to openly talk about this, The events that unfolded cannot go untold. I let someone into my life and trusted them with a lot of shit, to the point where I had done things that I regret. I dated @OkeanosQT from around June 24th - July 11th. I ended things with Okeanos because I genuinely felt uncomfortable with how absurdly fast we were going and how there was no legitimate friendship or connection beforehand. Clearly, that’s not an easy thing to tell someone and it’s also not an easy thing to hear from his end. We decided to remain friends and try to build some sort of friendship before jumping into anything. Obviously, after you break up, friendships aren’t really able to be made until you both heal and get over it.
Okeanos messaged many of his friends and even friends of mine about how depressed he was, trying to manipulate me into coming back or feeling bad. he would tell me that he hadn’t slept or eaten in days (but somehow was able to work out and go to football.) he would dm my friends telling them how much he missed me and how depressed he was. Even after the breakup, he dmd one of my friends saying how one of my friends was at fault for the breakup, even though he had no correlation whatsoever. It was all around super uncomfortable for me and extremely manipulative. Manipulation is something I’ve dealt with personally in many relationships (not all being romantically), so it wasn’t hard to spot this with him.
Now that I cleared that up, during our relationship we had done a good amount of things that were very rushed. I felt hesitant about it all, especially considering my past with relationships and just opening up in general. There was suggestive material/texts that sometimes I initiated or said, but it wasn’t ever forced upon me. However, this is where it gets a bit TMI and very uncomfortable for me to admit to hundreds of people online. I don't say this with ANY sort of pride but i did unfortunately send a picture of myself in a sexualized way. (aka nudes i just don’t like saying it.) I sent this picture over snapchat (it was a one-time thing) and I saw that he had “saved to camera roll.” I repeatedly asked him to delete it and show me proof of them being out of his phone. He showed me screenshots of his camera roll and recently deleted. me being naive and stupid, I believed he deleted it. Ngl, I did have some sort of doubt in my mind that it wasn’t actually deleted, but I chose to trust him because he was my boyfriend after all, right?
he had sent me the screenshot of his recently deleted but must’ve re-saved it back to his phone before sending me the screenshot. the picture still remains in his camera roll, keep that in mind.
It has been over 2 weeks since we've broken up and I slowly returned to becoming who I was before I was in a relationship. Anyone who knows me personally, even on twitter, would know I just genuinely have a flirty sarcastic personality. ex: making jokes about “I miss us.” to my guy friends or sending texts of conversations i found funny. These were normally sent in my private discord server/main friend group (kitkat v3) that I have been using for well over a few months so I didn't think much of it.
HOWEVER, Okeanos is in my discord server because I invited him during the time we were dating. I never bothered to kick him because I thought we would remain on good terms. One specific night (July 20th) he had seen a screenshot of my discord with me being in a call with someone and text conversations as well.
this got him angry and insecure (is how they described him) so he decided to send each person in the call with him (in my server) the picture he saved from before. the picture he SUPPOSEDLY deleted. they did not ask for the picture at all, in any sort of way. I’ve known these people for quite awhile and they never and would never ask for pictures of me. they EVEN had to convince him to not send it to my entire discord server (in general chat.) yes, he sent a minors’ pictures around. MY pictures.
Okeanos turns 18 in November and I am currently newly turned 16 years old (May.) I am a minor and under the age of consent, so the sharing of my pictures is ILLEGAL. Okeanos is well aware of my age and did not ask for my consent for sharing this explicit photo.
I never wanted to be on bad terms with Okeanos, he did not treat me badly and did not ever abuse me in any sort of way during our relationship. but spreading my explicit pictures KNOWING he did not have my consent nor my permission was way too far and not something i will let him get away with. It takes a lot for me to admit to doing such an action, especially because of the following I have and the privacy I wish to have. I have never felt more conflicted and vulnerable in my life, considering that my online alias and all my social media have never been a main source of attention or something that drama has surrounded. i never EVER like to make things public, but Okeanos does not deserve the platform and opportunities coming his way with behavior like this and the fucking shithole position he put me in.
I’m honestly so fucking shocked still and so fucking mad at myself even for letting myself be put into such a vulnerable and shitty position. I trusted someone because they genuinely convinced me that they had no malicious intentions and would never betray me in any sort of way.
It's even more shocking how he goes back to someone who he had constantly used as an excuse during any argument we had. if i had opened up about how i felt uneasy or uncomfortable about something, he would constantly be like “_____ hurt me and used me, i’m just too nice for people.” he would try to make himself the victim in any fucking situation. really shows how fucking manipulative this piece of shit is. Not to mention, this person that supposedly “used” Okeanos, has a history of talking shit about me without even knowing me, getting people to not want to talk to me by telling them I'm a “bad person,” and even making claims that I'm “racist” LMAO? I am going to let this person personally dm me about the shit they’ve said because one twit longer is already enough lol.
Your actions have consequences and you should’ve known that I would never stay silent. You should’ve thought about the serious risks you’re putting your career in, over an impulsive decision to leak and INVADE my privacy. you WANTED and CHOSE to betray my trust out of fucking anger. fucking ridiculous.
Thank you for reading all this shit. This will hopefully be the last post ever about this topic and I hope that Okeanos can learn and mature from this. I'll be continuing grinding competitive valorant and moving on with my life :)
TLDR: He leaked an explicit photo of me to several people in a discord call with him due to anger from me joking around with friends. I am underaged lol.