DizL · @LoL_DizL
19th May 2021 from TwitLonger
How often can you crush me?
Today I've been told that i will no longer be part of @teamAHG
I have so much that i would like to address but I want this to be done ASAP so i can move on
After my spring split here in AHG we have been told that we wont make changes for summer, so we took 2 weeks off and started scrimming again for 5 weeks. Two weeks ago things suddenly changed and me and my support have been told that we are allowed to explore options and that AHG tryouts other botlanes. So I was already mega fked since its so late into the offseason and barely any team was looking for ADCs anymore. The team meanwhile tryouted some botlaners and looked how i match with different supports, in the end i made it and fought for my spot and kept it. So everything is good right? No.
After this we continued scrimming for a week and I told all the teams that i was tryouting for that I'll be staying with AHG for summer and i'm no longer looking. Two days ago something big happened and my staff was being fired from AHG and someone new took over that also wanted to make changes on the ADC position. At this point I was already feeling so down and tried my best to stay cool. So there were another 2 blocks of tryouts where I had to prove myself, I have no regrets and believe that I played good games especially under this much pressure and being fucked over and over again.
And here we are, today I have been told that I am out which puts me in a horrible spot since now 99% of all teams in major ERLS are already locked and I will be forced to take a sub position or stay teamless for summer ... I was so hyped to redeem myself for summer but now it is what it is.
One extra thing I want to mention: I am no stranger to being fucked over after playing a bad split and i totally get why people want to make changes just the way it was handled completly crushed me, everytime I was hopeful and got crushed again and again...
Never have I ever been more confident in myself and my play, I will not stop here and come back stronger