Cloud9 and Keiti


I've been thinking long about this. However, I'm going to put my own interest ahead of this, because mentally it has been bothering me for the past days. A few days ago I made a twitlonger about someone threatening to leak my nudes. Now I quickly found out the source of this footage, which was two years ago in the Siege community. I sent this footage two years ago to a dear friend (M) of mine back then, and although they deny of sharing it, I can't look past the evidence against this person. I'm not naming this person, because I don't have full proof it came from them, but realistically it could've only come from them.

Now the present, someone made a burner account to threaten to leak my nudes to people. I ignored this initially after speaking to people about it. But then a day after (C9) Keiti, DM'd me saying my nudes have been leaked to her and that she's dming me to let me know. I thought that was extremely nice of her to do, especially because I never really knew Keiti personally, never interacted with her. I kept talking to her in the DMs, when it finally clicked to me. Two years ago, she was in the Siege community, and I found out she was friends with M. I started asking her about that time, because I was curious, not knowing that's where the leaked nudes happened.

The same day that night, she kept messaging me. She wanted to talk to me about something important. I joined a voice call with her when she confessed. She confessed to me that she was behind the burner account, threatening to leak my nudes. Her reasoning to me didn't seem malicious, but many of my friends told me she was trying to manipulate me. I'm not very well with reading my own emotions, I was quite honestly in shock. She threatened to leak my nudes to me, because she wanted a reason to reach out to me on her main account. She wanted to be friends with me. She's said many things in the recording which made me almost forgive her. But, I shouldn't have to go through the stress and frustration just because someone wants to be friends with me. She did say she would seek help. And I really hope she does.

Why am I coming out only now a few days after the announcement?
Initially, I went to C9 with the matter, asking for it to be handled internally without public shaming. They did. But the overwhelming support of the community for someone that has traumatized me greatly, still hurts me deeply. I've been struggling with dark thoughts in the past, and since I've joined VALORANT. I haven't had that problem in a while, except for last week. And it scared me. I didn't want to tell my parents or my siblings again that I was suicidal. I didn't want to be a failure to them. Seeing everyone speculating about what happened to C9W was an immensely triggering experience for me. All I feel is guilty. Guilty they're not able to play in the VCT Quals. Guilty there's so many disapproving eyes on them. Guilty Cloud9 got a lot of flake for something that wasn't their fault.

https://imgur.com/a/HcYUXqo

I'm sorry to the players of C9W, I'm so sorry to Cloud9. I'm so sorry to have destroyed the view of such a powerhouse team. I'm sorry I had to bring my baggage from Rainbow6 to VALORANT.

I'm so sorry.

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