Maestra · @maaarlys

14th Jan 2021 from TwitLonger

2020 and the future :3

Hey there,

I felt like reflecting a bit on 2020 and what I'm doing now, so this is my first twitlonger :)

As some of you might know, I quit competitive after Summer Split 2020 cause of multiple reasons. Firstly, I've never been in a team before where everyone had the same ambitions, dedications etc. While my mindset about how to play in a team was always highly ambitious and conscientious, i noticed that it frustrated me more and more to play with people who are not on the same page and e.g. prefer to go cycling instead of preparing for a match :^) This dragged me down quite a lot and I lost motivation to join teams, keep trying etc.

Secondly, I wasn't improving much anymore in the game and simply wasn't good enough to be at the level where I wished to be. At the same time, I finished my psychology studies, so I was at a point in my life where I had to make a decision. Considering all these factors and that I didn't think I was good enough to even attempt "going pro", it felt more reasonable to focus on a reallife job. (I'm doing postgraduate studies to become a clinical psychologist which means uni at the weekends and full-time job during the week once I found an internship at a neurorehabilitation clinic hopefully + I still have my eSports counselling job at Rapani eSports. So 2021/2022 will be a looot of work but I love what I'm doing :) )

Anyways, for the Winter Split 2020 I preferred to move to the background at Austrian Force and stayed officially as a mental coach, but in reality I rather did management things and scrim data analysis. I had a few mental coaching sessions with the team and individual players but after some time, roster problems happened and it was more important to solve that than anything else. Also, I didn't find as much enjoyment in mental coaching, which I already knew beforehand but people asked me to so I did it xD
Meanwhile, I engaged myself more and more in analyst things - scrim data calculation, opponent scouting, tried to work with Riot API, which turned out a bit hard with only "psychological programming" experience from my studies. But since I always loved numbers and statistics, it's really fun to me to combine those things with game knowledge.

That's why I'll keep staying with Austrian Force next split but this time officially as an analyst (inofficially as "girl for everything") :D
This is what gives me the most enjoyment in eSports right now, so I'll try to pursue this next to my reallife stuff and improve as an analyst during the next splits!
Also, I'm involved in some projects around doing a study/writing a paper with focus on eSports and stuff with women in eSports, so stay tuned! :)


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