Khroen

C9 Khroen · @Khroen

11th Jan 2021 from TwitLonger

Moving Forward


As some of you may have noticed, I haven’t been posting much or streaming TFT at all. In fact I’ve actually only streamed once in the past two months+. That being said, I’ll get right into the point of this post, and talk about how I feel about everything after.

I will no longer be playing Teamfight Tactics competitively for Cloud9. Instead, I will be moving forward with them as a streamer, and will be further pursuing more work as a part of broadcast talent, as a commentator in the TFT space, and perhaps even outside of the TFT space as well. In the future, if competitive TFT, or another game catches my passion again, I may very well choose to pursue it, but I'll cross that road when I come to it.

I’ve enjoyed my time immensely as a part of the competitive TFT community, and as a part of the community at large, you guys are amazing and this was a much needed space for me, coming from everything that happened at the end of 2018 with Blizzard and HGC and all. I hope to not distance myself from all of you, in fact I’d love to stay a part of it all, primarily as a commentator.

I’ve been doing commentary work with GiantslayerTV and their weekly Fight Night: Rising’s since TFT’s inception and it was always enjoyable, however, somewhere along the line I started wanting to be more serious about it. Having the opportunity to commentate the Set 3 Galaxy Championships meant a lot to me, and I learned a ton as well, especially casting alongside some of the best in the industry. After that point I definitely wanted to pursue even more commentary work, and even dipped my toes back in the Heroes of the Storm scene, casting some inhouses before the CCL went fully underway, and then the CCL exhibition matches when those came around and I absolutely loved having that opportunity as well.

I will still be playing TFT, and will probably even stream it as well at some point, but right now has felt like a much needed break from it.

I can’t get away from the fact that recently I’ve been in and out of a pretty large mental slump, which has greatly contributed to my choice to break away from competing in TFT. Depression is a weird thing, and it’s affected pretty much everything in my life recently from relationships, to work, and daily life, but, being able to confidently make this move definitely makes me feel a bit better about everything.

For a while I was kind of in a toxic mental cycle of not being motivated to play as much TFT as I usually would, so, naturally I was worse at the game and not performing up to my expectations of myself. Then I would feel worse that I wouldn’t be reaching those expectations and force myself to play but then I wasn’t focused at all, so I would still not do as well as my expectations for myself, and so began the cycle.

This definitely isn’t the route I ever thought I would go. I was so insanely excited when I first got the opportunity to represent Cloud9 by pursuing TFT competitively, and during that first year, even though the competitive scene was still very much under development. I’m happy with most of my tournament performances. I’ve only won one larger tournament, but I’ve won some qualifier weeks, and I’ve consistently placed in the finals lobby of pretty much every single one.

I’m still thrilled and very excited that I'll still be representing Cloud9 moving forward, but most of all I am grateful to be able to have this opportunity. I’ve loved working with everyone I've had the chance to over the last year and a half on Cloud9.

You all can expect the streams to come back, even if they aren’t going to be mainly TFT. I’ll certainly be streaming some Eternal Return: Black Survival, as that’s probably caught my interest the most as of late and I’ve been competing in a couple tournaments for it, the next one will be on Saturday Jan 16th at 5 pm PST. (If I’m not streaming by then it’ll streamed and casted on Twitch.tv/Scazzaf) For anyone wondering, it’s a kind of cross between a MOBA and a Battle Royale and IMO it’s super fun and has an insanely high skill cap, I highly recommend it!

Thank you all for taking the time to read this and I appreciate every single one of you. I also hope some of you might continue to support me as I move forward through this change. Much Love <3

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