Kronovi · @KronoviRL
1st Nov 2020 from TwitLonger
Leaving Rogue and what it means for my future
Hey everyone. As I'm sure you already saw, I am no longer playing for Rogue. There's a few topics I want to cover in this post but I'll try to keep it short. Some of it is negative, but most of it is positive for my future and I promise I am going to be happier in the long run :).
First, I want to start off with the reason why I left. As I'm sure most people can guess, the team environment was far from perfect. Personalities on the team clashed quite a bit and it often led to animosity during practice and/or live games. Before the major happened I had a talk with our manager. I told him if we couldn't overcome the hurdles we had tripped on at all the other regionals then I would like to be put up for transfer/be released. I felt like the 3 of us on Rogue had hit our peak and I was tired of trudging through practice with a team that I know wanted to replace me that couldn't even compete with the top 4.
As bad as that paragraph sounds I'm not really that upset and I wish everyone at Rogue the best of luck, especially the staff. I was always treated well and taken care of as a player an I really hope to see Rogue never leave the RL scene because players would be lucky to have them <3. I'm mainly just more disappointed that I couldn't achieve more with the roster while I was on Rogue and the stagnation of skill and overall team mentality was starting to get to me a little bit. I began to dislike the idea of launching Rocket League and that hasn't really ever happened to me.
One of the biggest reasons for wanting to be a free agent was to find an environment with a positive mentality for Rocket League. I just wanted to feel happy about launching Rocket League because I still truly love this game and community. I want to be in control of what I do and when I do it. However, I am taking a huge risk by leaving the team this split and with so little time left on roster lock odds are I will be forced to take 1 split off, as almost every team did their tryouts before the major. I actually only got to talk to two teams about tryouts, and they went with other players they had been set on before I became a free agent.
I'm not happy settling on the current pool of teams that might be available to me last minute, and jumping on a roster moments before rosters lock. Treading water all season sounds like a nightmare and wont help me look good for next split. While I wait for the next transfer window, I will be grinding Rocket League and improving my weak areas to be a strong free agent for the 2021 RLCS splits/seasons. It sounds crazy even to me but I actually look forward to getting back on the grind and really competing with people for roster spots in the future. I haven't really been in this spot often but I really wanted to challenge myself to rise above my situation and adopt a positive, long-term focused mentality where I can set goals and reap the rewards at a later date. I can't help but feel that the alternative solution was to stay with a team that wasn't happy with me and also made me unhappy until eventually my love and motivation to play RL was stripped away.
I know a lot my fans will be sad that they cant watch me compete this split. Believe me, I'm sad about it too. I am an optimistic person but having to take a break purely because I chose a bad time to leave the team really does suck. It's also dangerous if I don't grind like I say I will. I need to be in tip top form to be considered for RLCS rosters next split. My passion and dedication will be tested over the next few months, but I'm going to try my best to overcome any obstacles in my way and I hope I have your support during the journey. I want this to be an experience I can look back on and be glad I made the gamble instead of a decision I regret because I got lazy. I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure this was not my last split.
With all that said, I will have more time for streaming now since daily scrims wont take up my time and I look forward to seeing my community again since I know I've taken some very long breaks this year from Twitch. Thanks for reading and I'll see you guys around :D.