Eve Bings 🌲 · @FunkyMunky27
8th Sep 2020 from TwitLonger
Statement about Adam
I’m not sure how to start writing this document because I’ve never done anything like this before-
Hello, my name is Eve. I’m 21 years old and a former superfan of the YouTube series TribeTwelve.
I found the series late one night briefly after the video Several Months of Hell was uploaded and marked the start of my spiral downward with a meme of the Observer’s appearance in this episode. This was followed by reading every tweet, formspring update, and YouTube upload. I was instantly hooked. Creepypasta was already my “thing” as well as a fixation on slenderman but it was clear to me already that this series was more than just slenderman and had an arc and story that were not only original but introduced new characters that I would become quickly hyperfixated on.
At this time I knew I had found something special, and I was right. For the first few days I did not know who was behind “TribeTwelve” and even for a second my young mind wanted to believe the series was real (despite my previous exposure to other Alternate Reality Games) After a bit more research I found thenimbus on tumblr and my first move was to see if I could find him on facebook.
Nervous, yet cocky as hell I shot an “Adam Rosner” a friend request and later Rikki Audax followed by anyone else that I could tell was working on TribeTwelve. I just about peed my pants when I realized they had accepted my requests, but I had also been able to join the official TribeTwelve facebook group created by Adam and felt like I could consider myself to be in their inner circle. It was partially in this group and on the tumblr TribeTwelve community where I was introduced to many other fans and friends that would be present with me for the next few years and some even to today.
As much as I’d like to glorify this time in my life of being young and excited and close to people i considered my greatest inspirations (TribeTwelve was one HELL of an artistic muse for me for years) I cannot say that I wasn’t a crazy, almost out of control kid. I had suffered from diagnosed ADHD and Insomnia which meant around the clock I was both hyper fixated and ...hyper. I had a sense of humor which others could only call edgy misguided shock humor. And the ballsiness of my person meant I shared this with nearly everyone around me, which meant barraging Adam, Rikki and other fans with weird inside jokes and some strange statements that made no sense, were concerning or downright offensive without proper context (There was NEVER proper context as everything was randomly pulled from my head and shot out to the universe with no further thought) stuff like “what are your views on homosexuality” “Do you like fire?” “My friend says they want to share a bed with you” “Jeff the Killer says hi” amongst SOOO many other cringe inducing statements.
This unfortunately carried over through my entire first year of obsession with TribeTwelve where I became made aware by several sources that Adam was very fed up with my jokes, and was supposedly considered his “least favorite fan” (said in Tiny chat conferences where I was not present, and in private messages that I could not personally confirm) though my biggest proof was being told so by Rosner himself when I got the chance to meet him in July 2013.
I showed up with my best friend at the time, dressed up the best I could as the observer and mingling with some of the other friends I met through the fandom, and subsequently made an awful impression on the guy. He was very off put initially and responded to me only if he felt like he needed to. This was pretty crushing at the time and left me with a lot of mixed feelings and fear about how I presented myself in front of authority figures/celebrities/people I admire.
To this day I’m still very nervous about making people uncomfortable or having them hate me as a result of my “intense personality” I guess after going through some pretty brief friendships with very troubled people in the TribeTwelve fandom and eventually branching out to other interests as well (all of 2012-2014 was nothing but TribeTwelve for me) I managed to mellow out. At least I managed to mellow out enough for Adam to start talking to me again. I don’t remember exactly why I was talking to him so much other than I guess I started to feel like I wanted his friendship more than I wanted to stay at “fan status” and it seemed like he was open to friendships and collaborations with fans at the time. I would ask Adam about filming locations and when I would visit Florida to see my relatives I would try and stay at filming locations.
Eventually I felt comfortable enough to start up conversations, talk about personal troubles and just the little things. What we tended to REALLY bond over that I noticed was ...things we mutually hated. We would talk about things we didn’t like, people we didn’t like and eventually He would let me in on information involving his friends/ex friends that I felt was a little too personal to be sharing. I would be sent on little missions to spy on people he had beef with, ask questions about their opinions on him and have him share with me girls that he found prudey or repulsive (some were also underage and i didn’t really consider at the time). I went along with it more than glad to be talking to my idol and that he felt comfortable enough to let me in on his personal squabbles.
Eventually in 2015, I remember this vividly, sitting in my sibling’s truck Adam sends me a message along the lines of “Hey this might sound weird but I’ve had a crush on you for a while”
Of course this sent my heart racing because the CREATOR of one of my FAVORITE SHOWS that my life revolved around for /3 years strong/ just confessed his love to me.
I felt invincible. I considered the sort of status boost that I’d have to be in a relationship with THE Adam Rosner. We’d be a power couple and be famous for our art and I’d probably be able to share some ownership of TribeTwelve and work on him with it and I would be actively involved in my dream.
Then I realized “Wait, would that work? I’m 15 and he is 23”
I clearly couldn’t drop everything to live with the guy, I live in California and wouldn’t have independence for another 4 years. Aaaaand on top of that I still had a boyfriend waiting back at home for me. And on top of /that/ Adam wasn’t really my type, I thought he was cuter with the long hair and I was more of an observer type of girl and so on and so on.
I finally just decided the best course of action would be to tell him that I was seriously flattered, but that my age made things difficult. It hurt having to tell him this because I knew the pain of being rejected, especially by someone you’re crushing on. He responded with an immediate apology, telling me that he was under the impression that I was older and that I seemed very mature for my age.
This made sense to me because I was 15 and thought I was maybe one of the smartest people in the world and “I Guess I might not have mentioned my age before”
I ended up changing the topic to something else and I mentioned that I was in Florida for the summer.
He seemed very interested in this and suggested we meet to hang out. Instantly starstruck again my answer was “hell yes!” though we had to plan around when I could come up to cape coral to meet him, having my relatives take me and drop me off and whatnot.
I remember after a week or so Adam getting very insistent about meeting me and being very excited to do so.
Eventually the day came and we met up at Rotary “Victor” Park and had a walk around the area. It was a nice visit and he wasn’t creepy to me in anyway more than just awkward and I found it strange that his taste in anime was mostly moe and schoolgirl (though that’s another personal problem of mine) Our visit ended with me hanging out with him in his car to avoid the rain that just started coming down, and showing him my art. A tick crawled out of my art binder. I was staying in a house where a dog was recovering from a tick infestation, and I guess one got on my person before I left to go meet Adam. This scared the shit out of him, despite him not seeming to have any pets or an allergy to ticks and he asked me to get out of his car.
Since it was raining we decided to end things there and say goodbye for the day. I had my brother pick me up and I went home.
I apologized to him profusely over text as I was embarrassed as hell and felt like I seemed disgusting to him. He assured me that it was alright and nothing I could control.
After a few days he brings up to me again that he found me cute when we met, pretty much the same conversation repeated from before but with “sorry it that’s weird” added.
This was followed by him practically ghosting me for a month, Me trying to start conversations with him every other day, and him sending back one word responses “Nice” “K” “Later”.
This rubbed me the wrong way because I was under the impression that we were friends, right?
We’d had numerous conversations, I’d checked up on other people for him, We were trying to
“help” our mutual friend by trying to split him up with his ex.
Surely there must have been a REASON for him to be so distant and busy.
Eventually he came back to talk, and opened with calling me cute again.
He went on to talk about how he wished he had a girlfriend and he needed a morbid girl like me.
He said I would have made a nice girlfriend “if only I lived nearby” and asked me to again confirm my age as if he’d forgotten it, ask when my birthday was, and gauge what year I turned 17.
At this point I was being given very weird vibes and just sort of kept my distance for a while.
After a few more months he found another topic that he felt was interesting enough to share with me.
Adam’s Sony HandyCam that he used to film TT was dying and he was in need of a replacement. One of his homestuck fans/friends said she would hook him up with a new one but eventually ghosted him for some reason or other and he was at a loss. He said he didn’t trust buying a new one off a “super shady” website like Ebay.
So of course being the bright now-16 year old I was, I offered to buy one with all my savings, test it, and if it worked I would send it forward to him.
I told him I wouldn’t mind doing this so long as he Paid me Back afterwards, considering I was a kid with no source of income.
He seemed really excited with this idea and asked if there was anything he could do for me in return, to which I said “just pay me back” and he replied if you do this you name is going in the credits and so many promises and sweet words later I finally ended up getting the camera, testing it out, living my own little personal dream, and sending it forward to him.
He was beyond stoked and made sure to extend his gratitude, with all the facebook and tumblr posts to back it up, naming me as a personal friend.
This was really cool all until I felt too awkward to ask where my money was and he eventually started giving me the silent treatment again.
Cut to months later I confront him and ask him where my money is.
I didn’t want to get used and it was clear to me at this point all he enjoyed talking to me about was gossip and complaints, and that he didn’t care to speak with me since I expressed clear disinterest in pursuing an inappropriate relationship with him.
After my confrontation he got VERY nervous, told me that he had “no idea” that I wanted to be paid back for the camera and then reluctantly sent me my money back.
He followed with telling me that he didn’t know if we could be FRIENDS anymore because he wasn’t comfortable with being Confronted like that.
I was thoroughly annoyed with this and agreed that it would probably be best to go our separate ways.
He made sure to only message me after that to express concern at my unsubbing from his patreon (which he never delivered any rewards for) and then later messages of concerns that I unfriended him and apologies for plenty of things he wouldn’t specify.
To this day I avoid Adam, and these are the reasons why. I’m sure there are more personal that I could list to back up why I don’t associate with Adam anymore, but these are the most important parts that I can recall right now. I can share my messages with him as further proof upon private request.
If that becomes too much I’ll link to the screenshots here > https://imgur.com/a/CqIJTFh
I loved TribeTwelve. I was beyond attached and shaped as a person in so many ways due to this series. Everyone I’m friends with to this day knows who “the observer” is. I have friends that can recall everything about TribeTwelve just by my having long conversations with them through the night.
I find it ironic and sad and bittersweet that I am still so nostalgic for that period of time in 2012 when I thought TribeTwelve was real. When I wanted to meet Noah. Before I knew Adam.