Gamma Panix · @PanixR6
6th Aug 2020 from TwitLonger
My bench from NaVi. LFT post and thoughts on my/the team’s struggles last EUL
As you have seen, I’ve been benched from NaVi for now. You can read my whole POV after my LFT announcement. Don’t expect anything salty, I really loved this team and it’s going to be a story of how I felt the whole time with NaVi and how I felt the struggles to play well into the last stage of EUL. It can be interesting for other players or even for fans.
I am looking for other teams to play for. I have 5y of experience at T1 level, experiences in most of the roles of the game, specially good with operators with stuff like nades, smoke, etc. I have been IGL for S11, and shotcaller for as long as I can remember. Always happy to do extra work for the team and very vocal outside/inside the game. The last season doesn’t show what I am capable of and rightly used I can be a do it all player for your team. I am looking for T1/T2 teams specially. English or French.
My POV
I am obviously disappointed, but only on myself. It was definitely my best team in terms of professional environnement (support staff, motivation from the players..) and relation wise. It was a performance issue that I couldn’t get out of with this team. So I think change is good for everyone involved. I wish we would have tried roles changes before to make any roster changes, but I was not thinking of myself enough. I have always put the team before me and play for the team. If someone needed something I was the one who’s gonna be here or answer everytime and adapt to their needs. Outside and inside the game.
It pushed me into a gameplay where I thought that if I focused only to help the team by wasting utilities, time, be the bait or do what someone need, it would push our entries to play well and be more efficient. But I totally forgot about me in this whole process and when I realized that, there was probably mental block affecting my in game decisions. I tried everything, like playing every second I was not sleeping, relaxing more, watching my vods etc. It just showed I was not in the right place as my role or in the team with the method we were using and trying to play.
Although I played bad, I still learned a lot, prob the most out of any other season. I’ve improved my issues with tunnel visioning that I had against G2 but it was fixed after that. I was able to hear any calls and come help every time someone was struggling somewhere. I’ve also had more responsibilities that I’ve ever had with Navi, IGLing at some point, being the captain (not the first time) on the last season and creating a method and a whole panel of attack strats specially, on S11.
Now, anyone saying I am done or putting the Navi results only on me. In such a complex game, there’s a whole bunch of explanation that can explain bad performances (individual skill?wrong role ? bitch role? etc) Before coming to this team my individual stats and skill were there. Once I was recruited, we went from 4L 1 D 2 W to the total opposite with 2 L 0 D 5 W. There were issues inside the team that were still here after the changes and I managed to come, fix those for a time and push the team towards the same objectives and goals inside the game with my callings and my method. It worked great for us obv. Before the EUL started, we changed to Kendrew’s calling and went more freestyle as a method. The issues that were here before my coming raised again and it felt like there was a split of views inside the team. We weren’t so bad but very inconsistent. I am surprised there was not more changes, as I brought bad performances and deserves a change. But the issues are apparently very old and only fixed like glueing a table leg back to its place, but here, with roster changes. With weight coming onto it it’s gonna fall again.
I really loved playing for this group of people and the support staff was great to us. I’ve never experienced that before. That’s why I am concerned but I really hope those guys make it work and do something great. There’s specially some great and humble people there who deserves the best.
Good luck to you NaVi.