No easy way to say this


Hi, I'm just got back from hospital after attempting suicide. The last few days are a blur.

I'm not depressed, but I do have a heightened PTSD/autistic response to things that brings together sudden loss of impulse control plus heightened flight/fright reflexes. So when several overwhelming things happen at once, I cope by trying to run away from existence.

I'm under care of a psychiatrist who thinks I need to stop antidepressants because they're dulling things and I'm not depressed so they're making things worse not better.

I have high ALT (liver enzymes) and low potassium, which I need to keep an eye on over the next few days. I'll be resting a lot.

Bullying on the internet is only one of many things that cause me to try and "escape" in a permanent manner. Others were simple things like an autism meltdown, supermarket queueing system, and physical pain.

Luckily my gold king, @Fronbow, has been there for me, non judgemental, supportive as always. I love you Martin, I'll try not to check out from life again.

So, I'm still here with you guys, if you can put up with your messy old Queen for a bit longer. Love you.

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