This has been a crazy past couple of days, I honestly don't even know where to begin.
First of all, I want to introduce myself to those who don’t know me. My name is Christian Acosta (aka NIGU in the smash scene).
Roselan (Aryxn) Ranada was previously my girlfriend from January 16th, 2017 up until November of 2019. Her 18th birthday was November 1st 2016.
For those of you unfamiliar with the current situation, Rose recently posed a twitlonger making accusations of Electric, Xzax, and me.
Please read her statement carefully https://www.twitlonger.com/show/n_1sra9rj?new_post=true
I apologize for the delay in my statement, I just needed to be sure that I did not miss a detail and I wanted to address everything she said, honestly and with full clarity. To clear my name of false accusations, to apologize for any wrongdoings, and overall shed light on the situation.
As Rose stated in her twitlonger, she and I met working at T-mobile back in January of 2017. When we got together she was 18 and I was 24. I was aware of the big age gap, but we had mutual feelings for one another and were both legally adults. It is true, as she said, that I didn’t initially want to be with her because I thought I was too old, but my feelings towards her were so strong that I really didn’t mind being with her.
A few weeks into us talking, she hit me up and asked if I could bring alcohol to her and her underage friends. I take full responsibility and regret doing so, and to confirm, the allegation of me driving under the influence is also true. I was aware that it was illegal at the time but didn't pay mind to the potential dangers of my actions. At the time I thought I was doing them a favor, but I have now come to realize the terrible consequences that could have come with my ignorant decisions. I not only put her and her friends lives in danger, but also the lives of other drivers and pedestrians. I am grateful that nobody's life was lost or negatively affected by my ignorance. It was wrong of me to have done that, and it is inexcusable behavior as an adult, especially considering the age gap. For all of this I truly am sorry.
I do want to say though that I LOVED that girl. I really did so much for her while we were together, and I do have proof. When we got together while she was still working at T-Mobile she wanted to quit because the job was too stressful for her. Which is understandable because her mental illness was something that made it hard to deal with angry customers. I let her live with me and my brother without paying rent for nearly a whole year. I would buy her food daily and would hardly complain. I was draining my own savings just to support both me and her. She eventually got a job because I couldn't afford to provide for the both of us. Eventually she was able to start paying rent, but even then we didn’t ask much from her.
Ever since we started dating, I wanted nothing more than to help her kick her depression. I genuinely wanted to get her the help that she needed and that's exactly what I helped her do. I know that she appreciated the effort I put in too. I did the right thing by calling the Suicide Hotline and I let them know that she really needed the help when she was showing suicidal thoughts. From there we were able to help her go to therapy. (https://imgur.com/tAeTsHn , https://imgur.com/ndvKsCk )
I’ve taken her to her therapy sessions and anywhere else that she needed to go because she didn’t have a car (https://imgur.com/044XSkq ). I really wanted to help her.
I even reached out to her family. Something that was really hard to do because they haven’t seen that side of her. But I did it to protect her. There were so many times that she would get in a dark mental state that it really scared me and I didn’t know what to do. Who else could I turn to other than her family who loves her?
I thought of stories where there really were people who overcame their depression, and I really wanted to be the person that helped kick hers. I was nothing but supportive the whole way through.
A bad relationship is a two way street. I know that I let her get away with a lot of things, but over the course of our relationship I was the victim of extensive emotional/verbal abuse.The screenshots that I am about to provide are serious. So, I don’t want anyone to think of her any differently because she is still a human being. She may have some personal demons, but we all do. However, I do believe that some of these can’t be overlooked.
https://imgur.com/kzLVEGs Threatening to hurt others. (She doesn’t mean it, she just goes to a dark place sometimes. But so far there has been no cases of her hurting anyone.)
https://imgur.com/RCZ8fAo https://imgur.com/4pwKf0k, https://imgur.com/tXlBYVh Pretending to slit wrist. -- July 2017
https://imgur.com/jBfAHaV -- September 2017 There were many instances of her making rules that I had to follow to make her happy.
(https://imgur.com/th6uWvf, https://imgur.com/EwouIGS, https://imgur.com/qQd1xaw, https://imgur.com/Kj0Nt13) Threatening to throw herself off of a balcony. -- November 2017
One of the scariest incidents would have to be her going to the Philippines. She really didn’t want to go, but tickets were already bought. She wanted to come back home, and I would get texts like these everyday. It was to the point where she would threaten to kill herself if I wasn’t able to personally buy her a ticket home. -- November 2017
I went to many therapy sessions with Rose and was able to meet her therapist. She is an amazing therapist, and I appreciate everything that she has done for me and Rose. She told me if she ever threatened herself or others again it is totally justifiable to call authorities. This isn’t something regular civilians are meant to handle, and it’s the safest way to make sure that nobody gets hurt.
https://imgur.com/DD57vSy -- November 24 2019
I also want to make something clear. I want everyone to know that Mental Illness is a serious thing. If you know anyone who might be at risk don’t be afraid to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. This can honestly save a life that is in danger and help any individuals who need to seek guidance.
I want people to support others who are speaking out about their experiences with sexual assault. Now more than ever at this time where individuals are building up the strength to do so. I know that it is a super hard thing to come out about a lot of these things, I wholeheartedly 100% believe that this is a good thing for any community. However, I can’t be silent in the event that false accusations are made against me and I have to defend myself from serious allegations.
I was nothing but good to Aryxn. I was loyal to her, despite some of the things she put me through. I wanted to stay strong for her, so that she could be stronger. I know that I have been upset, and I have definitely gotten emotional (https://imgur.com/0sXWE1D ,https://imgur.com/xIXkleq, https://imgur.com/xwx1IWo). But never was I EVER abusive, mentally or physically. Anybody who knows me, my family, my friends, the smash community, and myself know that I have never purposefully hurt her or manipulated her in any way. Due to the circumstances and her targeting me, I feel like I'm forced to let everyone know the truth about what has been going on in the background. Things that I would have never had the chance to defend. There are always going to be multiple sides of a story. I am not discrediting Rose in any way. I understand that this must have been a difficult thing to put out there. There is a lot more that I have, but I’m hoping this is enough to clear my name and I am able to provide more proof if it’s not sufficient. I am an open book and I don’t mind responding to any questions anyone may have.
We ended on good terms, we stayed friends up until I left for Texas in January. I was still supporting her even after we separated in November ( https://imgur.com/yKN5ppk ). I really thought that we were on good terms. I was also all for her talking to her new Boyfriend Dazai. I was fine with all of it. https://imgur.com/i35tf3U , https://imgur.com/1tEzkDd -- January 2020
6 months later I find myself now being accused of grooming among other serious allegations.
Please Rose if you are reading this, if you have any actual solid proof of me abusing you please put it forward. I want to learn from my mistakes, but if you’re going to just say things without letting anyone know my side of the relationship, that just isn’t fair. I never wanted to hurt you or stop your growth. I hope you can read this and at least try to remember that I was there for you always and that it hurts that you’re calling me out publicly without any way to defend myself. What you put out about me is very serious and I don’t believe that I deserve this for how good I’ve been. For how patient I have been with you for these past 3 years.
To Dazai, I really hope that you two are doing well for each other. I hope that you are treating her right and I hope that you guys are helping each other grow. I ultimately still want the best for Rose. She was a big part of my life and I still wish for her well being.
I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this statement. I also want to make clear that I wish no harm to any parties involved. Thank you and I hope you have a great day.