David 🛬🇬🇧 · @bingsuboy69
2nd Jul 2020 from TwitLonger
My crimes/hypocrisy and how I am going to fix them
Hi, my name is David. I am a TO for a local in my area called The Ultimate Adventure. In light of recent events, I have introduced the idea to the NorCal safety panel as well as the community as a whole of a possible ban of alcohol in non 21+ venues, places that are not bars or clubs. This is to combat predatory behavior and to protect minors in our community.
I want to begin by saying that I have done behavior that contrasts with what I am introducing. I also want to say that I am not talking about sexual harassment or preying on minors. I never have nor will do anything of the sort. However, I have brought alcohol to my own local prior to being a TO. This was a huge mistake. One of the respected regulars told me that it wasn't okay and doing it could shut down the club. I believe that I stopped doing it, bringing alcohol, but the player has recently told me that I have done it again. At this point, I will just believe his side because I don't trust myself at this point when it comes to memory.
Further, I have driven under the influence when returning from 21+ events. There was one event called Who's Your Pappy that was about a year ago that I attended. It was in Berkeley about an hour away from where I live. I drove one other person back home because they did not have a ride at all. I was slightly buzzed and had a Long Island Iced Tea.
There was another incident where I attended a player's 21st birthday at the 251 Club tournament. I had 2 shots there. I drove my friend B home while I was buzzed as I took the shots in the middle of the tournament and reasoned with myself that this was tolerable behavior when it wasn't. Fortunately I did not have to drive immediately as my tire became flat and we had to get Triple A to come help us. I sobered up as Triple A took 2 hours to find us since we were at a weird gore point in the highway.
I would like to say that what I did was wrong and hypocritical. However I would also like to state that I have grown over the course of a year. There is nothing to excuse my behavior for what I did, because driving under the influence even by a smidge is a crime and if I had chosen to give alcohol to a minor that would have been a crime. I am glad I didn't. Even so, I firmly believe still that alcohol should be banned at non 21+ venues in order to combat predatory behavior. I brought it in the past to have fun with my girlfriend at the time and was not aware of the common sense that yet, it could have led to someone being in danger. And for that I am deeply sorry.
As for the drinking while buzzed, I would like to convey that there is something wrong with me mentally. Drinking while driving was something that I did not deem as dangerous at the time because I am severely suicidal and things like drinking while driving don't process as deadly or selfish when they obviously are, especially when I had another person in the car. This has been something I've been dealing with for the longest time and I've had multiple hospitalizations for attempted suicides. I just got back from a hospitalization 2 weeks ago.
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Of course, this is not an excuse for my horrid behavior but I hope that it could show that I did not intend to harm anyone via drunk driving or drinking alcohol in a venue. I would also like to elucidate that I will never do either again and I hope that is enough for your forgiveness.
I am working and will work very hard to prevent harassment of any type to occur as long as I have any means of stopping it. Further, I am working hard with admins to try to improve our community. I hope that you can forgive my actions.