cass | #bIm | 🏳️🌈🐸 · @kumoggs
26th Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
about cyphate.
For a long time, I didn’t want to talk about this. I blamed myself so much for what happened, everyday I’d just say it was my fault it all happened.
Cyphate and I were in a relationship when I was 16, and he was 29. I thought I “loved” him, and vice versa.
When we got into a “relationship”, I explicitly expressed how uninterested I was in anything sexual, and at first, he said it was okay, that he was fine with it. After a while, he started to pressure me, asking to send me nudes and asking for them back, or would randomly be super “lewd” in vc. One night, when we were sitting in a call together, he kept pushing for sexual things, and it made me genuinely very uncomfortable but I would laugh it off/try to ignore the conversation/change the topic, and soon the conversation did shift from that, but it has genuinely became something I dwell on so much still, especially since I have previous issues with things like this.
I was so scared to talk about this, especially to those close to me. I thought they’d judge me, say it was my fault, but now I know that isn’t the case. I was in a very bad place at that time in my life, and he knew. It took me so long to admit that I was taken advantage of by an adult I once looked up to and admired.
I don’t have much proof of anything explicit from him since many were in calls or in discords I am no longer in, but I wanted to share my story, I was tired of hurting in silence.
Cyphate acknowledging I was 16 at the time:
https://gyazo.com/4412092b9e716005aae32e9db3f910d6
Cyphate talking about his age:
https://gyazo.com/740e77d4362f9bdab600356e9d991508
Acknowledgement of a relationship:
https://gyazo.com/f6bdc9b559d515249ac01d8f1c2b160b (ironic lol)
Acknowledging the fact he made me uncomfortable at one point: https://gyazo.com/57e528f1ea4ceecb544d21533da34ff4
https://gyazo.com/90746a8abdc2e604025b5a99e9fc7de9