Bay · @FinalBossTV
26th Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
My past with Hodiaa.
I wanted to respond to the questions from earlier as I promised to everyone I would on stream:
First and foremost, the situation that unfolded at Blizzcon between the two of us was one that I misunderstood, and I pursued thoughtless actions when I should have used direct communication. I am sorry for that, and I will continue to be sorry because I crossed a line.
That being said, from everything I can remember, we had shared dialog and communications far prior to the event that led me to believe we were more than just guild-mates, but people interested in one another. So naturally when we finally got to meet for the event, there were feelings that could only really be sorted once you get to finally see that person. That does not excuse what happened, and I strongly regret the way I chose to express my assumptions.
It clearly turned the safe space that I should have provided, into something horrible.
I did not act appropriately in this situation. I wanted to make amends for the situation after it happened, once I realized I had done something wrong and that I had made those assumptions about intentions she did not share. Out of embarrassment and confusion I did not take the steps I should have, to immediately apologize and be accountable for my actions. In fact, as she stated, it took far too long.
I learned from this, and I will continue to learn from this experience, that this is not the way consenting adults who respect one another act. My immature decisions I made ended up hurting someone that I enjoyed in-game, someone whose friendship I valued, someone who I wanted to have a safe trip.
I will take some time away from the the internet to continue to reflect on my past actions. I’m sorry to Hodiaa, to the FinalBossTV community, my guild, my friends, and to the online community as a whole.
<3ay.