ZoeDalle

Zoe Dalle ღ · @ZoeDalle

25th Jun 2020 from TwitLonger

@Method #MethodWay Josh, my experience, the whole situation



My experience with this whole situation revolving around Method and MethodJosh. You may have seen me mentioned in one of the screengrabs of Josh talking to Gwenagerie.

First off I'd like to preface this with saying I don't have any personal interactions in a negative light with Method outside of Josh, while the upper echelon should be held responsible it is not fair to tar everyone the same, saying that though, all who knew should have pushed harder for change. I am also not a minor and I never took the many offers to meet Josh irl.


Onto the meat of the subject. I met Josh through a general wow discord where I also met a lot of friends, Josh was very quirky and I saw he was the brunt of jokes on many occasion so I began to lend sympathy to him. I'm quite empathetic and maybe that was taken advantage of but I would spend time on and off with Josh trying to help him be less awkward, to try and convince him to present better and how to interact with people better (clearly this didn't last more than 5 minutes). I really wanted to help this guy, amid all the memes and him being really odd and being a dick to me at times.


Between these moments Josh would actively persist with sexual advances, would follow me into voice (at which point i would instantly pull the plug on my mic), would send me pictures of himself in various stages of dressed and at one point even had 2 different accounts to cross reference my responses to him with the other accounts he would act wholly different on. He even sang to me for 20 minutes. Most of the time I would laugh these advances off as I was not interested in the slightest but they would persist, I was trying to politely decline them. Unfortunately I have lost many screengrabs because I used puush back then and they are temporarily saved.


Josh persistently asked me to be his girlfriend despite us not really knowing each other, asked for sex, invited me over, said he would do anything for me. He wanted me to introduce him to my friends (I didn't even bother subjecting them to it, I told him that they weren't interested). Would turn from being polite to then being negative when declining his advances.


Luckily I'm old enough to not give a crap about someone giving me hollow positive reinforcement and I'd like to also say that this didn't really harm me, it was seen at the time as just some kind of trolling from him but with how things have come to light I think it's useful to show this is how Josh is, he isn't joking, it's not like he didn't have help and it's not like he didn't know what was right and wrong.

I actively tried to be a barrier between himself and another user (a minor) that has posted their story, if I'd have know the full details I'd have been even more aggressive with that barrier. I think it's very easy for people not involved or for this to be such an alien situation to them that they can just easily wave it all aside and say "it's just accusations, it's on the internet, it's just words, why didn't you report it to the police".

Sadly, minors are very impressionable. Being young and getting compliments when going through the turmoil of school and puberty and getting crap from people everyday has a huge effect. There is also the power dynamic of 'this guy does what I do at a pro level, I want to be in his inner circle!'. This is the whole reason there are age laws, minors are irresponsible regardless of intelligence, I learned that lesson a hard way when I was young myself and unfortunately the law is not perfect either, neither is confidence at that age. I had no idea he was being sexually inappropriate, all I saw was him getting way too friendly with a minor and i stepped inbetween.


When the Kotaku article happened with many other online personalities, I wasn't sure how to take it with regards to Josh. On one hand I knew he was strange, on the other I didn't know if posting him alongside others like elvine was correct. I was so deep in the rabbit hole I didn't know which way to turn, if I'd have known him better then I'd have had better judgment. Something that I question on how Method or others close to Josh couldn't have seen, surely his team who are around him knew more, surely those in his discord, his stream...I wish I'd have known more.


When Josh began meeting girls (of age) irl, I tried to help him be normal with them. Present himself. Speak well. Entertain them properly and not be the 'character' that was displayed on twitch and discord. Finally (I thought), he was heading in a normal direction, girls of his age and healthy relationships and even learning to eat and dress better. Then I read yesterday about poopernoodle... and everyone. Then we found out the 'character' is actually just Josh. We all got to see what the other side of the story is, not just Josh's or the people that covered for him.

I feel so angry and so guilty for helping him, if anything he said that came from advice I gave him lead to any of these situations I am so sorry and honestly I am absolutely staggered with how myself as a nobody can be so angry and embarrassed about this whole situation and then Method as an organisation close to Josh can be so cold with their statements and lack of proactive decisions.


For the girls that got harassed, abused and hurt. You are loved and respected for coming forward, I stand with you, I hope everyone can see what's been going on and can stand with you too. I am so sorry this happened to all of you. I pray you never have to go through this again in any form.

For the innocent members of Method, I genuinely feel sorry that you have been dragged into this. You don't deserve it, especially the guys that aren't part of the raid team.

For the members of Method that knew and turned a blind eye, even if you lose money and sponsorship it won't matter. Money comes and goes. However friendships will be broken over this and guilt lasts forever, I hope it was worth it for you.

I'm a nobody, I don't really enjoy using social media but I want people to know this stuff is real and how it affects people, the point isn't for any sympathy for me but to show that this is how the girls have been interacted with. All the love, Zo. x

I'll leave some screengrabs that I still have, they're from Josh's banned account but as you scroll through you can see it's clearly him https://imgur.com/a/fmcnk9R Josh I've left out some of the stuff that isn't relevant, I'm not that much of a dick but you know the crap you've said to me and asked me for.

Sorry Josh, I genuinely wanted to turn your life around but all you've done is burn every bridge for yourself and the people around you... I hope you get the help you need and don't hurt anyone again. Please don't contact me.

https://twitter.com/poopernoodle/status/1275930814694543360?s=20
https://twitter.com/SlappedSpaghet1/status/1275872562669596673?s=20
https://twitter.com/2Alexmae5/status/1275824750720356352?s=20
https://twitter.com/Gwenagerie/status/1275877156707545091?s=20
https://twitter.com/catscats123321/status/1275904188275462147?s=20
https://twitter.com/Wigglegiggles1/status/1275898764566441986?s=20
https://twitter.com/anniefuchsia/status/1275574676937474048?s=20
(I'm sorry if I missed any of you)

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