The Next Chapter
I had something written but my twit-longer disappeared so we're writing on the fly now. CS is something really important to me, it helped shaped me into who I am now and has been a major passion in my life for a long time. No other game captured my attention as much as CS did when I first started playing when I was 9. The passion only grew when I started playing competitively at 13 and then finally making pro in CSGO years later. CS gave me purpose and direction when I had no idea what I wanted to do in my life. Obviously there was still a lot of hard work and some luck for me to get to where I got, but I digress. Idk where I'd be today without CS.
Now that doesn't mean it was all sunshine and rainbows. 10,000+ hours poured into the game over years. Plenty of frustration, exhaustion & heartbreak over the past 5+ years to accompany all of the good memories I made but I wouldn't trade any of them, good or bad. I won't lie in saying I felt like I got the short end of the stick sometimes, maybe even unfairly so, but no reason to dwell on the past. In the end, I was reaching a point of burnout. Honestly idk how I went on so long w/ little to no substantial break (as we finally see it being publicly talked about recently, players mental burnout etc.). Lots of pent up frustration along with a bunch of stuff going on in the scene outside of my control, I wanted a break from competitive CS. The VALORANT beta came at a good time, as I was able to take a break and enjoy something new. I had no initial plan to switch games at first; I wanted to see how VALORANT felt and if I thought it had a future as a competitive esport etc, besides just enjoying the freshness of a new game. Obviously I came to a conclusion on that matter :P
I love CS and it'll always hold a special place in my heart, but I'm excited to start a new journey. Being able to fully invest myself in a new game and learn everything there is to learn about it is a feeling I haven't had in a while. I feel like the competitive fire has been re-lit and I'm hungry for more. One thing I wanted to say is if you're a CS player and you don't enjoy VALORANT, that's fine, that's your choice. But there's no reason to spew vitriol and hate to players/streamers choosing to switch games. CS & VALORANT will co-exist and will push each game to be better and push devs to work harder. Competition is only a good thing in this case.
Lastly, I just want to thank everyone that has supported me or continues to support me in my career through all the highs and lows. I'm excited to play for an org such as C9 and I'm going to work hard to be the best player I can be. I hope to make a name for myself in VALORANT as I continue my own story. Stay tuned <3