Ozlan · @Ozlan19
23rd Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
My assault. MSRTV_ and more.
So, I wanted to stay as anonymous as possible, while sharing my story because there seems to be a lot coming out right now and speaking out is the best way to take the power away.
For a lot of my time on twitch, I was super close with Orbz. Loved him like a brother. Helped him financially to get set up streaming by buying parts of his PC and donating A LOT of money. There was a year that his girlfriend of the time KayWordly was going to visit him for his birthday, and I was invited along, so of course, I agreed and travelled to be there... At this time, one of his house mates MSRTV_ and I had been talking a lot, but it had become very toxic. He was getting mad when I had to cancel plans to game due to dealing with family things, and guilting me/emotionally black mailing me to prove his point. He became incredibly possessive and in general acting as though I was "his".
I figured that since there would be a group of us, things would be okay while I was there, so thought nothing of it... MSR didn't talk to me for the day or so I was there before the night we went to celebrate. That's the night things really started to get out of control.
We were all out in a club drinking, and although I was a little drunk, I was still 100% aware of everything and what was happening, but most of the others were not... Later into the night I started to have a panic attack, and everyone else being off dancing, MSR was the only person with me. He started dancing with me to distract me, but soon I felt him push himself against my back. He was letting his hands wander and everytime I shuffled forward, he would follow, staying firmly attached. After a few minutes, I managed to leave and grabbed Kay, explaining what had happened because I was scared. She calmed me down, and took me outside with Orbz and helped me tell him what happened... Orbz's reaction was "we won't be here much longer. Lets just go back in and have some fun. Stay with Kay."
2 hours or so later we finally got in the taxi home and the alcohol had CLEARLY hit some of them hard since one of our mutual friends who admitted to being pressured by another one of the guys friends into drinking had thrown up all over the bed we were supposed to be in for the night... This made sleeping arrangements more complicated. Orbz and our friend needed to stay by the bathroom, so we agreed they would sleep in the hall. The only other place was in the room with MSR... I asked Kay and the others if I could NOT be in that room, but they told me I didn't really have much of a choice, and MSR PROMISED that he would sleep on the floor if I took the bed.
We finished cleaning up and I got into bed, and after an hour of watching films, I told MSR I wanted to sleep. Expecting him to go to the floor like he promised... That wasn't the case. It was a single bed, and he had decided he wanted to sleep in the bed with me without my consent. I couldn't really do much since I was between him and the wall, but I was too uncomfortable to say anything... So I hoped that if I just slept, it would be okay, and he would eventually move when realising there wasn't room for 2 of us. Instead, I started to feel him pressing against my back, his hands on me, pulling me back against him, and his hands wondering into places that they shouldn't of been while breathing very heavily and sighing in... what sounded like pleasure.
I eventaully managed to tell him I was going to just grab a blanket and sleep in the gaming chair in the other room, and managed to climb out of the bed, to be confronted a few minutes later with MSR coming in and telling me to go back to bed, because he "didn't mean to make it awkward".
This whole time I told myself those other people could have stopped it simply by not forcing me into that room... but they were too intoxicated to realise... Now it makes a little more sense. Now, I'm questioning the whole night. If someone you say you love as a sister is assaulted by your housemate in a club, you leave and protect them... Especially when they live 6 hours BY TRAIN away from where you are. That's not what happened for me. They forced me to be with him.
A few days later, I was accused of lying and making up horrible things about people involved and publicly demoralised on stream. Although Orbz did not play a part in the public shaming, I question the intentions of everyone that night right now. How can you act like nothing ever happened and continue to promote and partner with someone who assaulted your "family"?