What i have done, and Who i have become.

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To start, this is not an apology.
People can say sorry to as many people as they like, as many times as they like. Even if some people have forgiven you, you need to find a forgiveness inside yourself.
Have you reached the point where you can look at your past and understand what you have done. Be it happy or not.
I personally set out to try and create happiness for people by doing anything and everything I could to help those that I fell in love with. I did not feel like I was doing this to receive something in return or to gain anything. I just disliked unhappy people around me

I feel by doing this some people because close to me not all at once, but over the course of 2.5 years I have fallen in and out of love with people, and in between these relationships with people I have acted out.
What I want people to know is I am not the boy I used to be 9 months ago. I am not sliding in DM's, talking about intermate topics, asking for photos, talking about hooking up. it took me a lot of personal loss and regret to understand how I was talking to treating people. I am not being a victim here and I am not seeking a forgiveness that is not earned or deserved.

I will never mention anyone or approach or talk to anyone that I feel I have effected in the past be in the IRL or online, because they deserve to live their life as best they can.
I believe there are underlining issues in my life from childhood that I have never told people and I don't want to as it is something I learnt to live with, but it does not excuse my action from the last few years.

I have grown up and stand against the actions of men and women that mistreat people on social media. you can call me a hypocrite all you like, but my thoughts on sexual abuse, bullying, toxicity, racism and hate to other people is very very firm.
If I can turn my life around and from someone who did not care enough to think twice then why can't you. If you are someone that thinks they have affected people. First, don't go looking to say sorry. be a man and tell your story admit your mistakes and move on.

p.s. I understand people may read this and think he is vile and sick, in which case I don't deserve your support on any platform and I regret my actions. I needed to tell my story if anyone wants to know more details on anything please let me know. If anyone needs someone to talk to either DM me or comment on this there will be someone around to talk to about anything you need. To the people I hurt, I hope you don't hurt now, I hope you have moved passed anything that affected you and you never experience it again. And anyone who is thinking of asking for something or doing something with some one make sure it is what both people 100% want and are happy with.

I would like to add that since this any relation i have tired to have have been ruined by people taking it upon themselves to make up lies about about me and DM people i am close to just to twist the facts. I dont hide behind my passed i am moving on from it. I have been called harresed, had fault accusations made about me, and lies thrown at me or people close to me.

I say again if you want ot know more or talk i am happy to talk with you. but im not the monster i used to be and i will never be that boy again, i will be the man i am now.

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