Merrlinda 🍑 · @mariahcarriesu
22nd Jun 2020 from TwitLonger
My experience with yellowpaco.
I just want to start by saying I'm deeply saddened by the stories that are coming into light. To those who are speaking out, you are incredibly brave, and I want to thank you. You have helped people like me who may not be as confident to telling our stories. To those who are too scared, It's okay. You matter. You are important. We believe you.
It was in 2018, I had broken up with my ex at the time. I was very vulnerable and hurt as it was what I would consider my first serious relationship. I would say I was pretty quick to seeking out attention and affection. I had found Paco's stream and was drawn to his charisma and influence. I quickly found myself growing to like him, and expressed this in dm's, which then lead to strong flirting and sexting. He was always very blunt and forward about what he wanted. He also spoke about dating me and had a way with making me feel good about myself- feeling wanted.
Fast forward, I was going on a trip to see my friend in Vegas, and Paco suggested that I come over to his place. It was getting close to midnight. I remember saying a couple times that I wouldn't be able to make it, which he made me feel bad about. I eventually gave in and said that I would come over. I made him promise that it'd only be cuddling, and at most kissing. I was so naive to think he would keep that promise. Thinking back I always shamed myself for this decision.. When I finally got to his place we started cuddling. Not long after he started doing much more. It's hard to recall everything that happened, but one thing I know for sure is I refused to have sex with him multiple times. He kept pressuring, and kept asking and eventually I gave in.
That night I could not sleep. My mind was alert replaying over and over what happened. I deeply regret what I let happen.. That coming morning, he acted as if nothing really happened. He seemed very standoffish and almost pretentious. Here is SS after what had happened
https://imgur.com/a/ZQuLoch
To those who may be in contact with, please be wary. Not long after I had heard from some girls that he would ask them to come over. I will always hold guilt over my actions that night, but I hope that I can use it to help others in any way possible.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.