pineapples are an undefined shape · @LilyVGC
21st May 2020 from TwitLonger
IMPORTANT. finding myself and moving forward.
If anyone is reading this you obviously can see my tweets lol. I've been going through a lot recently and a decent amount of what I have been doing is soul searching. For a long time something in my life has felt off, and being diagnosed with depression and anxiety, it's sometimes hard to tell if i'm in a slump, or if there is something else bothering me.
I'll cut to the chase from here, I'm going to be leaving this account, as well as changing somethings. The next few paragraphs will be about important details.
Me:
I'm going to be changing my name, yes i know im lily to almost everyone, but as I've been going through my life for the past few months, the name has been sitting wrong with me and I couldn't tell why. Names to me, have to have a meaning, and I want my name to have an important meaning. I've decided on Rachel. Rachel is the most important name to me in the world. The anime the name originates for me at least, Angels of Death, practically saved my life. I watched it during the hardest part of my life, the year I was suicidal and ended up becoming home schooled, came out to my parents as transgender etc. The anime spoke to me in its own way, and it has stuck with me since. The name has such an important meaning to me, I can't help feel it fits me better then anything else. I hope you can respect this decision.
Account: I hate having a large following. I will be moving to another account to start fresh and enjoy being able to be myself without the fears of an insanely large audience. If we're close, feel free to dm me on discord or this account and i can pass you the @, if you stumble upon the account, feel free to follow.
Streams: I still plan to stream and will be changing my current twitch account to the re-brand once I'm ready to, and I will also be active still in playing Pokemon, Valorant, etc. with my friends. If you catch me around somewhere in a vc or a stream, dont worry about saying hi!
I hope this clears up most of what I've been feeling recently, and I don't plan on putting a TLDR in. If you don't care enough to read what I wrote, then I could care less.
Thanks for reading, much love
Rachel.