The past and moving forward...

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Hey

First of all this isn't a retirement tweet. Things between me and singularity didn't workout as they are going to tryout for new 3rds moving on forward.

The main reason why i'm typing this twitlonger is because there has been some things going through my head and I felt like talking about them would help me the best. I've told these things to my closest friends and family but I need to let my fans know as well you know?

Anyways, everything started last year when I was still on Complexity. It was couple days before RLCS season 8 started when my girlfriend at the time told me she wanted to breakup with me and remain as friends. It was a complete shock to me. The next following weeks I tried my best to focus on RLCS and put all of my emotions to hold, acting fine when I was really not. It wasn't until the season was over that I realised the breakup had really happened and I needed to recover from it. Around that same time my dad received a call that my grandma, who I hadn't seen in couple of months died all of a sudden.

I started talking to a psychologist who worked with complexity and it was really helpful for me. I managed to gather my thoughts in a way where I stopped blaming myself for everything and was ready to play again to my full potential in the upcoming Promotion tournament. As we all know things didn't quite flourish in that tournament and I ended up being in the same position again as I was in the start of 2019.

Immediately I had my eyes set on TSM because I wanted to play with Metsa again and it turned out they wanted to play with me aswell. Our tryouts and scrims in the beginning went really well and as most of the teams predicted, we were definetly a top 6 caliber team. But when it came to the RLCS games, things didn't quite work like intented and suddenly we were on a 3 game lose streak. In my head I started to think that was I the common factor, the player who went 0-7 last season and now being down 3 games, was I the reason why we were losing all the games? I snapped pretty quickly out of those thoughts after the first win we had in the season. I started to see glimpses of my old self in my gameplay, the player that I wanted to be. The whole season ended up being quite dissapointing, so after the season was over, it came as suprise to me that a RLCS level team wanted to try me out.

I figured now that I need to do the same thing as I did the first time being in this situation. I need to grind myself back to the top and not feel like I haven't even earned my spot, joining a team after team each season.

So with that being said, i'm going to teamup with Linus next season because he is probably the player i'm most comfortable around and I trust him with everything. I hope everyone supports us in this new chapter (actually a re-written chapter) and we will see what the future holds for us. Much love ❤️

Love Moggie

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