❤︎ lala ❤︎ · @usahano
8th Apr 2020 from TwitLonger
regarding a thread about me and my past
hi everyone
before you read this, i want to take a moment to warn you about the kind of topic i’m going to talk about. it might come over as very shocking and is a lot to process at once. the twitlonger also contains things i’ve experienced in my life which i prefer not to think about anymore so please be considerate
because honestly, i’m not ready to write any kind of message regarding this situation, considering how much stress and anxiety this has been causing me on top of what i’ve already been dealing with lately
but seeing that there’s so much misinformation spread around.... and how the situation has been getting more attention against my will, made me feel like i needed to speak up a bit
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a lot of people might’ve seen a thread pop up on their TL yesterday where someone was obsessing over me (Laïs). yesterday was also the day where i personally found out because someone tagged me in the thread. hours later, people were constantly messaging me about the guy... some were simply asking about the whole situation or just letting me know that he posted those things about me, while i would’ve rather not known at all. from there on, the twitter thread kept getting more attention seeing as other people commented on it/shared it in close groups or publicly as seen here: https://imgur.com/a/fZpAj3h and https://imgur.com/a/RCotbAg
to be clear, i‘m not pointing fingers at any of you as none of you could’ve known that i didn’t want this to happen :( so please don’t feel guilty if you’ve done any of these things!!! like... i asked the person who posted that on instagram to delete it so no worries. at the time it was just stressing me out considering i wanted to keep the situation as lowkey as possible since i was still having trouble processing what happened
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so the first time he and i talked before his confession was on december 4th, 2018 and on april 18th 2019, and both conversations were extremely short. i only sent two messages in each.
two months later, without talking in the meantime, he confessed, saying that he really liked me and thought about me every day back then. i told him i was confused but flattered and proceeded to tell him he could message me on twitter if he wanted to talk (for some reason we followed each other already)... and i know what you’re thinking right now: i should’ve just straight up said i wasn’t interested and i shouldn’t have given him ANY more chances to get to know me better but i just didn’t know how to handle it so please don’t attack me for making a stupid mistake like that, i swear i really didn’t know any better
after that happened, he would... keep posting things about me publicly. on his instagram story or on twitter, like how he was constantly thinking about this one 15 year old girl (me) and how he dreamed about becoming her boyfriend, growing up together and eventually marrying her while he himself was 19 years old. as of today, april 8th 2020, i am 16 years old and he is 20 years old.
since he’s posted about me before, i assumed this was about me too so i decided to send him a message explaining how he made me severely uncomfortable and afterwards i blocked him on every account i had, cutting our ties in the process. since then i haven’t heard or checked up on him, until yesterday.
and if it wasn’t clear already: i have NEVER dated this guy. he is not my ex, even though he refers to me rejecting him as dumping him. we have never been a thing and we never will.
here are some screenshots of other things he’s posted about me after i rejected him: https://imgur.com/a/56rdaqG and https://imgur.com/a/KyPqQip and https://imgur.com/a/S8mHvdA
and these are from the twitter thread, screenshotted yesterday: https://imgur.com/a/ZYL1Tfv and https://imgur.com/a/lS0TMR2
i blurred out his name in order to prevent people from harassing him so please don’t do that. no matter how uncomfortable his actions make me feel, i don’t think there’s any point in attacking him. especially when i’d rather have people forget that this happened as soon as possible, since i just really hate having attention drawn towards me when it’s associated with stuff like this.
it reminds me of a lot of suppressed memories from the past, ones where i’ve had to deal with grown men trying to groom me or just extremely creepy messages in general. at the age of 14 someone told me they masturbated to my selfies while i was in a call with them (muted, both listening to a music bot). and there have been so many instances where someone tried to befriend me for the sole purpose of getting me to be their girlfriend or to convince me into sending them naked pictures of me. i’ve also received so many unsolicited dickpics from both strangers and friends. so ever since i started just.. being on the internet i’ve had to deal with that kind of stuff. since i’ve grown up dealing with it i thought it would be ‘immune’ to it considering i was constantly exposed to that kind of stuff at a young age. but i was wrong. despite what i’ve gone through it’s still hard for me to process what’s going on right now and i just feel... really disgusted. not even disgusted by the people who did that to me but by myself. somehow i’ve always felt like it was my fault those things happened to me
in conclusion, things are just really rough and i’m trying my best to keep it together right now.... and tarik is doing a really good job at helping me with that :) he’s been calling with me as much as possible and doing a good job at keeping me sane so here’s a special shoutout to him <3 and another thank you to the people who reached out to me despite not knowing what’s going on right now. if anyone is confused about anything feel free to message me so i can clear things up
thank you for reading