Rashad Sahadat · @AvoidRashad
5th Jan 2020 from TwitLonger
Smash 2019
I don’t mention too many hobbies of mine when I’m not posting memes and advocating mental health but if anything 2019 taught me is that I’m blessed for the life I have despite how unfair it can be. I’m at the point in life where I’m all about taking care of me and those I surround myself with. Other than that, the extra banter from others is irrelevant. Self-care isn’t selfish ya feel.
One of the biggest disappointments for me a few years ago wasn’t having to keep that I gamed competitively outside of school but TO LET that affect my self-worth. When you’re Pre-Med and you’re spending time with what a lot of the older gen consider useless and heavily looked down upon in the type of environment I grew up, feels like I had to be ashamed of things I enjoyed. 2019 was a horrible year but something as small Smash Bros. was an outlet I needed at the time to be happy even if temporary. Learned to become more vocal about the nerd-ish aspect of my life and in no way am I embarrassed of it.
Playing competitively is one of the most fun hobbies I’ve invested in. The thrill, the competition, the excitement of playing in front of hundreds, etc. It’s been a vibe I’ve been taking advantage of while I can. Hearing from others that they enjoy watching me play is a good feeling.
- Reached a small goal of becoming Top 10 (#6 s2 & #7 s3) in all of Texas (Rankings mean absolutely nothing though in the long run and shouldn’t affect how you view yourself). Even with those small accolades I still don’t think I’m as good as some see me lmao. It’s a fluke I swear.
- Placing 7th/400+ at Dreamhack Dallas (Huge gaming event) is the first national I managed to solidify my name as a threat in the scene. Helped out a lot with the confidence in my play.
- Met a lot of people who became good friends, traveled to a few new places I hadn’t visited before, and made some unforgettable memories. I became sponsored by a good group of people from ‘Last Stock Gaming’ and I appreciate the faith they have in me.
One of the best feelings though from being apart of the scene is the ability to give back and help the community. Being thanked for even just a small conversation and seeing how beneficial it is to someone is an amazing feeling. Majority of the time it has nothing to even do with this game. It’s all love.
I deal with issues from depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder. I’m killing it when it comes to taking care of myself. This small thing helped a lot going through it. I’m grateful.
Appreciate y’all reading this wack novel if you did lmao.