Being finished with competitive & my time playing it.

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Frankly to say i never really expected to get into this enviorment, so i'd like to make a recap of how it all started.

2018:
I started off playing mostly for fun, as i was an ADC Main at the time playing for a school team that wasn't that serious. but i got an oppertunity due to a friend/contact to play midlane for HeS in the CSD split.

It was a rocky road for me to begin & start up, playing something ive already played a lot before. From what i remember, we didnt get the oppertunity to play in the playoffs for that split, so that was a shame.

Come the next CSD split, a drastic change happened where i became the toplaner of HeS, due to the other one being benched. It was something i kinda was expecting, as i was scrimming a lot more playing toplane (viktor/lissandra duty was fun xd)

In that split, we dominated the league, only really losing to Hajde, who got disqualified nevertheless, I felt like i performed well, or at least had a strong impact in terms of how i played, Even though it was just Viktor/Lissandra duty.

Come CSD playoffs, we won it 2-0 against Flames Academy, where i promoted up to LCD with HeS.

Well.. safe to say i was happy/excited for the oppertunity to play in LCD, apart from the fact i got benched/kicked literally the day after (thanks Vand :))

I was frustrated, confused and dissapointed, cause i felt like i was good enough to play at that level, and that i could compete with the other toplaners.
Come 2019:

So.. it was time for me to prove myself, that i was willing to do it, and i never felt more motivated or driven to prove something. Then came the tryouts, First it was in Copenhagen Flames, where i didn't really expect to get the main spot, but i felt like i performed over the expectations of what people had for me, so i felt kinda proud about that. I didn't end up getting the spot, but thats where another team had tryouts, thanks to Mikmer for showing it for me.

And that team was..Hobro Vikings.

I shit you not, i dont feel like i ever had a more drive or motivation to prove myself, i wanted to win. I wanted to prove that i am good enough, that im driven enough to win it all, Tryouts came and i feel like i competed against the competition very well.

I got into the next stages of the tryouts, and won the tryout as well. I felt very happy and contempt with the fact i won it, until an unexpected turn of events came, where i was replaced by Linops as a package deal.

It left me extremely frustrated and demotivated, that the time i spent to prove myself was just there to be straight up replaced. I could have taken the oppertunity for other teams, but i was so sure that this was the team i would go for.
The management team and i came to the final agreement of that i was a secondary toplaner. Following the LCD split, after two games, then Linops left the team for another, i felt like it was then my oppertunity to prove that i belong as the main spot.

The team then came to the point of a shared spot between me and Viggomopsen, as Viggomopsen wouldn't have a lot of time to play the game, leaving me with more scrim time and development. As well as personal coaching by a wonderful coach named Vandetto, that really made me into a much better player than i ever thought i would be.

The team ended 4th place in the regular season.

Come playoffs, i was told that i was going to be playing the most of it. And i never felt more driven, more motivated to win something. I would call myself quite the competitive person, and i felt it was the moment for me to shine.

First semi-finals came and we played against Wicked Gaming, at the time that was a really good roster in my opinion. We won the series 3-1, and i was really happy about my performance in it. People didn't know much about me, so it was really for me to leave a mark.

Come finals, i was starting out vs Copenhagen Flames, i felt nervous playing against Nille, as he is regarded, and in my eyes seen as one of the best toplaners in Europe. In the first urgot game, i felt the pressure and worked my way towards to win it. And i guess thats where i left my first mark with that ridicolous Urgot play, some may know me for.
I never felt so much rush playing this game, and i felt like it left an impact in the whole series.

We eventually won LCD 3-1, where the last 2 games were played by Viggomopsen, which i can truthfully respect, He was also an amazing player toplaner to work with, and i felt like i learnt a lot from him.


LCD was won..so where was it for me to go then? I got a few oppertunities, but for the summer split i ended up in Hydras.

And boy, was that a fucking mess.. A lot of mixed personalities, a lot of discouragement and cohesion that wasn't between the players, and i felt frustrated playing both DEL and LCD in that split, as i was dealing with my exams at the time too. I'd like to give a personal shoutout here to Harry, being supportive and helpful durning the split, as i felt like there was a lot of pressure on me to perform. We ended 6th in the regular season of LCD, and lost in the DEL playoffs, and i felt like if the chemistry was there, it could have been so much better.


Now to this recent/ last split for me, I decided to join Bucks Vipers, as Mikmer reached out to me and picked me up.

I felt like this was the final time that i would do this, and i am happy that i chose Bucks Vipers. We started off rough at the get go, but it felt really nice playing in that enviorment. And i appreciated the fact that i had the oppertunity to be coached by Vandetto again. I felt that we kept improving for each scrim, and the productivity left motivation in me again. I felt like it was a chance for me to 'prove' and redeem myself once again, cause i always said to myself i am better than i am.

But it was rough, it was really rough for me cause i felt like i was a burden, i make so many mistakes that were impulsive, and i felt like my mentality sometimes towards the game itself was leaving me in such frustration.

So i worked together with the roster of Mikmer, Maltz, Thor, Jeppehou, Vareitor and Vandetto to give it a shot to win it all again. I felt like we could win it, i really did, i had my hopes up definently after winning against Atlando 2-0. Its just a shame that i felt it all collapsed after losing to Fortress, and then after being stomped 2-0 by Copenhagen Flames.


At last, im surprised if you made it here, but i would say it has been an awesome experience playing in an enviorment like this, And i appreciate the fact that i at least left a mark in the Danish scene. And i'm glad that i met some good players, and most of all some awesome people.

I would like to thank all the team i was on, be it Hillerød, Hobro, Hydras & Bucks Vipers for being a place where i had the oppertunity to play in.

I would also like to personally thank Harry, Droox, Kalhira, Mikmer, and several others that believed that i could do it. And especially Vandetto for coaching me and making me into the player i am.
Would also like to thank both Hobro & Bucks vipers,for being a good enviorment for me to play in.
I don't know where i will go from here in terms of the competitive scene. but i think it's time for
me to stop at a point here, as i started University, and want to keep that as my main focus

I don't know what time will tell, or what it will bring, it was certainly nice to play in this scene, and i hope LCD gets the fucking improvements it needs, instead of being seen as a partial joke.

I'll stick around, of course. And i wish good luck to everyone else in the scene

Ses.

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