Cheick's new Schmooveᴮᴸᴹ · @What_the_Cheick
4th Aug 2019 from TwitLonger
I’ve been in pain for the past 6 months
I went out tonight
It was alright
Took a bus home and passed by a familiar place and *boom* I’m depressed
By this point I’ve told this story over and over like a broken record
About me losing the people closest to me
But what I haven’t said is that
everyday for the past 6 months
I keep thinking about them
Sometimes it’s memories linked to places, music, media whatever
Sometimes it just happens
I can’t have happy moments anymore
If I ever feel proud or happy I just think of it and it drags me down so much
Tonight I walked home
Crying my eyes out because of it
6 whole months and I’m still not over it
I saw one of the people the other day
I walked past the bus stop
They came out the bus
We looked at each other and immediately looked away
That hurts
So much
Someone I shared so much with
Who always cared for me
Who I always cared for
Someone who I would spend hours with
Someone I considered the closest person on the world to me
Couldn’t even look at me
It hurts man
It hurts so much
And I’m going through this
Randomly
Everyday
I can’t be happy without it creeping up on me
I can’t be sad without it creeping up on me
I’m in pain
And I might always will be.