dellor · @dellor
7th Jul 2019 from TwitLonger
im sorry everyone
im so sorry for how depressed ive been lately guys. i miss you guys, i miss life. i miss being what i used to be.
i don't think i was ever meant for this ride i was given. i took it for granted. i didn't realize what i actually had until it was too late.
i hadn't been in trouble for years and thought i was on good terms with twitch. i guess i was wrong. 1 mistake and its gone. i didn't mean to be sexist, i was just trying to roast the person in game that was arguing with me. i have nothing to say other than i'm sorry.
i was treated like an outcast my entire life and finally my mom, my sister, my neice, my relatives and friends were finally proud of me.
i had offers from TSM, luminosity, and others. i lost 200k of my followers, i would have been at 800k and approaching 1 million. i would have been able to make enough money to be able to live my life, get a home and a girlfriend someday, and take care of my disabled mom. now i am demonitized and might not be able to pay my bills.
i was finally starting to make positive changes in my life before this ban happened. i was eating healthier, spending more time with friends, was trying to get a girlfriend and then i fucked up and this happened.
i'm so fucking sorry everyone. my fans, community, my family. i love you guys. i hope i can be normal again someday so i can make you guys happy again.