I've decided to take a step back from competitive cs
As much as I'd love to continue grinding toward my goals the reality is that I've almost used up the money I set aside to pursue CS, without having to work on the side to make it work, and frankly I do not want to continue down this path for too long, or commit 50% to two different things.
It's not the easiest thing to go around having several expenses but no steady income, I'm sure those of you who live by yourselves can relate to the stress it can put on you. This is something I've been going through the past year pretty much.
The reality is, I've got a mortgage, rent and all related expenses that follows with being a house-owner, property taxes etc etc. and I'm not able to just get by with few winnings here and there. I never played the game for the money, but with being a wannabe-adult eventually you just have other commitments and responsibilities that requires a steady income of some sort to get by.
I'm going to take a step back and look at what comes next. My first priority will be figuring out what I wanna do, be it esports related or just work/education and see what time is left over from what I choose. I still have some goals set that I want to reach and get back to in CS, so I'm not gonna say I won't try and make it work once I get the opportunity to get by financially, or at least till I feel more comfortable with my economical situation.
For now I'm gonna put myself as inactive and figure out my next move, I don't know if i'll be back to competing, if i wanna try and do other esport or cs related stuff or just completely put the career behind me and look forward towards a new chapter.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading