Molegion · @TA_Molegion
24th Apr 2019 from TwitLonger
How I feel about Gwent currently.
Let me start by saying that Gwent as a game is in its best state ever. All factions have plenty of playable archetypes , there's a lot of decks in the meta, even though Bran is strong I don't think there is a single deck that outshines all the others. We've just had an expansion and it really helped the game feel fresh. Yet I play less than ever. Why is that? I just struggle to find motivation. Because while the game itself is awesome now, Competitive Gwent or Gwent as an esport is in it's WORST state ever. You may say "how can that be true? We have a challenger and world masters coming up, the most exciting things are still yet to come". And I will agree that for viewers there's still a lot of exciting stuff coming up. Production value of those events is always awesome and it's pleasure to watch the tournaments. However, if you look at the players participating in these events you will see what I mean - there's ~12 people who have something to prepare for. When Gwent introduced qualifiers for Opens, it seemed like the idea is to give more incentive for people to compete, but at the moment, as a result of a very snowbally system, there's only a dozen of people who have a chance to pursue their competitive career. And of course, I don't want to take anything away from them - most of them are absolutely top players who are where they are because they deserve it, and I'm glad and happy for them because I know how great of a feeling it is to compete at official events. When Homecoming was announced, people were mostly upset about not having updates for 6 months. The thing I was the most upset about was that there will be a long competitive break delaying the start of the next season and delaying all open tournaments in general. As a result, assuming there will be no Open until August (which I think is optimistic already) there will be only 1 Open tournament that you can directly qualify for in 10 (!) months. Seeing this is just really heartbreaking - it was always my dream to be one of the best in esports, and when I've finally made it, there is a super long offseason where there's nothing I can do to continue my dream. I'm a student. Next year, I will have to write my thesis, I will have to do 3 months of internship. My time is possibly running out, yet there's nothing I can do to use it to the full as a pro player. I wish we at least had some ETA on next masters season. All of this makes me really demotivated whenever I launch Gwent. That's also why I'm not streaming much recently - I love the game but playing it at the moment makes me feel hollow. And I want you guys to enjoy the streams, not watch me force myself to play. I will be making some content if I'll have a sudden dose of motivation but I don't know how much will that be. Maybe I should just consider my "career" as a one (or two) time adventure that is gone and I shouldn't look forward to it. But at the moment it's hard for me to accept it. I also promised myself that this will be my year, the year of Molegion. But it's hard to believe it when you don't know when you will be able to start.
I'm sorry for getting emotional, but I felt the need to share it with you guys. I also hope nobody considers this post as an attack towards CDPR - they were always nothing but awesome towards me and the pro scene in general. Thanks everyone for all the support, you are great, Gwent community is the best community I've been part of.